so today i pon sch.. woke up and din feel like goin to sch lor.. its one of those days.. so i woke up and used the excuse of me havin a cold (which i really had..) it wasnt that bad.. it was better than yesterday.. it was the.. jus felt like nt goin to sch.. sch days.. everytime so sian.. no time for beauty sleep.. then weekends most of the time very packed.. everyday after sch - stay out late - go home later - sleep after 12.. can never get used to so little sleep.. a break from this hectic lifestyle.. almost every week i have this break.. where it is not goin to sch.. doesnt seem wrong.. i like it.. the thing is needing the mc.. while phelan says he everytime pon nvr giv mc.. oh well.. thX to a blur form tchr kangbengek.. shes the only one who wants to call my parents.. haha.. 7 entries of jurnal all not done.. sleeping in test.. and while phelan could pon everytime without gettin caught.. i nvr did that sort of thing.. except for the last day of last year.. that i pon without mc cos it was the last day..

oh well.. woke up in the afternoon.. had plenty of sleep.. did my art cos dont wanna get screwed again for nuts.. other ppl nvr do anythin she hardly day anythin.. i draw out my ideas then she criticised almost everyone of my drawings.. though she may b stating some facts.. but what mun yee say and wad mdm teo say all so different.. the friday mdm teo say i find alot of images.. the nx day lee flipped my jurnal and critised everything she possibly could.. one has better opinions on me.. while the other has negative.. "tried to be perfect.. nothing was worth it.. "jus try to be what i m.. and do wad i can.. at least i dn hav to see her too often.. at least i hav friends to help me as models for my drawings..

sian.. fullmeatal alchemist tak so bloody long to load in youtube.. like one min to load 5s.. the manga and anime seems different though.. but its so irritating for the load time is long.. moreover.. theanime dn hav full.. mus go by part 1 part 2 part 3.. good anime but super long load time..


i watch the world turn
i felt my soul burn
if time were to stand still
i hope i could find you
but if i ever do
how would U feel?
all i wanted
was one more day
jus to see your face
again
my selfish desires
kuMWaI­­®

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3:13 AM


stupid kang beng gek..
best she go home bake cake..
today come to class got test..
the whole class say dont have..
give out papers sit behind..
i thought she one eye blind..
comprehension..
i did 8 question..
ten thirty.. very sleepy..
thought she doing her thing cannot see..
sleep sleep sleep halfway..
suddenly got nightmare..
two errie arms came from the back..
shaking me up from dreamland..
beng gek gave me heart attack..
stupid beng gek..
dont ever wanna see U everr again..

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11:12 PM


went to watch just follow law, four thirty today.. seems to hav a lot of hidden meaning of some sort.. but the most unrealistic part abt it is the body switching.. which contridicts with everything else of the story being that it is easy to relate to the singaporean life in one way or another.. besides that.. alot of humour especially with nii na buu.. and the indian security guard.. asking how to spell VIP.. wheel clamping the fire engine.. and repeatedly saying somemore..






-till the feeling fades..
ill still dream of U when im asleep-
-till i can keep you off my thoughts
ill still be writing this lines-
-till i can erase those memories..
ill not be able to foget the unforgetables-
-till it all fades away..
ill not regret doing it all again-

¥

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10:20 PM


chinese new year seem to pass so quickly.. nw is alr tuesday.. homework still nt done.. eve seems like the most fun.. sunday also.. then monday so sian.. last day alr.. no mood to do homework at all..

had dinner at uncle's place for reunion dinenr.. oh ya.. slept till abt 6 that day.. cos reached hm at 7am that day.. steamboat wit classmates.. lols.. chicken egg.. nii naoo bu!.. lols.. mango.. watched ghost rider at vivo.. then stayed at the back ther overlooking the sea and sentosa till abt 6.. so reunion dinner was ok.. it was alrite.. had the raw noodle pull high high.. veri nice.. everyone seem to say abt y wai leong so sad.. accompanied justin play sparkles.. while i kept the fire alive for him.. in the end made a mess cos of all the ashes from all the burning of the paper boxes.. then happy new year..

first day.. go grandma hse.. my parents pun seh me.. i had to walk ther alone.. dono y they woke me up so late.. went ther eat lunch.. then the younger generation in our family played majong.. i joined in of cos.. at first early game i won a little.. then slowly i lose lose then no more money liao.. abt three thirty went to church.. sat with my parents at indoor this time.. the msg was abt chinese new year.. was very meaningful espspecially for this occasion.. after svc ate dinner at auntie joann's ther.. again eat the yu shen.. but this time put ther nvr pull high high.. which seemed awkward.. after that then went to find ivan n wai leong.. as usual.. go play lan lor.. but went to cine first to check out the gaming place at the ninth floor.. then walked to paradiz.. irc closed.. Zzz.. folo them go arcade first.. a while ltr then go to oddesy.. played a game of dotai.. but dono y got disconnected halfway.. then play the fifa 06.. and i so damn bloody hate fifa 06.. it suX big time sia.. so diff to play.. pass the direction must press.. if nvr press properly then will kick the ball to pass to air.. i nvr scored one goal except when playing with com.. after laning.. decided to go to swensens instead of sin hoi sun to eat.. ivan first time at swensens.. and the food did not disappoint any of us.. all of us had backed rice but of different kinds.. then we shared a banana split.. was late abt 4 alr.. ltr also need to bai nian.. so we took a cab home.. the taxi driver seemed like a boduh.. go a weired way round..

slept and woke up abt 12.. like before.. my parents went ahead without me.. dono y they always wake me up when they abt to leave.. and when i was about to leave.. it started to rain.. zzz.. bo bian tak one unbrella.. thank god my red black checkled shoe wasnt that wet through the rain.. as it wasnt that heavy halfway.. like always.. lunch.. my uncle took us home for a while before fetching us to maternal grandma's place.. i packed my books and physics hw.. intending to do in my free time there.. but as expected.. i did everything but that.. stayed ther for dinner.. slept for abt an hr abt 5 to 6.. after dinner.. reach hm abt 9.. so nw sian.. gonna sleep soon.. ill think abt everything else when i wake up.. and probally count my red packets too.. ^^



-every place in town reminds me of what used to be..

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11:19 PM


ms kang confiscated my phone on friday sia.. for a couple of hours.. recess time left the phone to let jarrvis and whoever in class takcare of it.. cos they playin song.. and when i went up ms kang alr confiscated it.. according to jarrvis he say that he in toilet.. then wai leong wented to stop te thing but din noe hw.. but he could hav jus pulled out the poone from the audio-in wire.. Zzz then in class all try to help me get back.. cork up the story that i left my phone in class and then someone took it i dono.. which was basically how i got it back.. but it wasnt that straight forward though..

at first i tried to act emo.. she giv test then i dn do.. after that ms kang say ssay ahwile then ask whoever plug the phone in to own up.. in the end more than 5 ppl go to her.. while i go toilet.. i come back then say that after sch return me.. Zzz.. ok fine.. then ltr one pm waileong folo me go find her.. she say no no.. go back class.. wtf sia.. then after reading period i go i was realy after sch alr.. she in class.. luckily got more ppl to talk wit her.. then she say wan to keep it for the weeked.. wtf.. while i pertend to tak out the simcard memery card etc.. then ranil they all say say somemore.. then she finally gav in and let me tak back.. haiZ..

in addition to that.. everytime she looked at my hand that day.. she would say all sorts of nonsense.. "what happened to your hand? who are you mixing with?" she had said that for 4 different occasions.. lolx.. so naggy.. mayb monday ill get it again.. cos i dont intend to speed up the rate of it fading away.. jarrvis one nicer sia.. Zzz..

i drew my hand.. i drew my hand.. apparently the nip of my pen niddle broke and bent when i dropped it on the floor.. so i could remove it.. and if if i wrote with it.. it would be super super inky.. then i used it to draw my hand.. drew the punk skull on my fore arm.. even after finishing it.. which took abt one period; less than thirty mins or so.. it was still inky and din dry.. so i used my full scap paper to abosrb the ink.. abt one or 2 times.. so that it wouldnt smudge when its so inky.. dotX.. did one for jarrvis too.. his one so nice hope it doesnt fade off so soon.. mayb when it does.. ill draw something else on..

hehe- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -

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8:57 PM


Cry little emo kid
The camera wants your scars
Press the blade a little more
Celebrate self harm.
Make out with another guy,
Post up photos of that kiss
Bad poetry and tired clichés
Sleeves above the wrist.
Cry little emo kid
Are those jeans too tight
?Or is it that irritating fringe
Blocking out your light?
Star little emo kid
Everything you own
Listen to that whiney voice
No wonder you’re alone.
Scream into your diary
How hard your life has been
And how you cannot take much more
Life on the emo scene.
Wearing stripes and converse
With your stupid, painted hair,
Writing suicidal notes
Although you wouldn’t dare.
Cry little emo kid
Attention-whore your friends
Tears for songs by pre-school bands
Until the fashion ends.

reproduced without permission from ~inlondontown

Labels: emo poem

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8:45 PM


in my day i stayed the same
until that moment U came
a glimpse of U was all i saw
the light of an angel
was so quickly gone

i only wish i could turn back time
to times you were just right here
i wish i could turn back time
all those days are now so dear
and if i could ever do that
ill stop time to feel the unreal

all along so still
i stumbled upon the sight of you
so captivating
you stole my heart away
mayb it wasnt you
mayb i was the one who gave it to you

yaya..yaya..yaya

so wont you come back
come back to let me feel the unreal.. ya

minE©

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10:52 PM




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10:21 PM


w00h00..
singapore won..
even though it thailand drew first blood..
singapore still won!..
sian.. only celebrating alone..
ole.. ole ole ole.. haha

lollipop tommorow

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10:21 PM


I want to live in a world of peace
Without conflict, like the one I've seen in my dreams
I just can't keep it inside
I've got to say what I wanna say
The bus stop at twilight, on the way home
Saying bye bye bye to the sad backs of others
Your face doesn't show your fighting pose
A world like the one I've seen in dreams
Without conflict, daily peace
But in reality, I sometimes worry about
Love and the day to day grind
Those rolling days
You would never hold a lie, no never
All my loving, without it, I can't go on
Sweet love like I've seen in my dreams
Lovers searching for hidden faces
But in reality, the days we can't meet
Continue on but I believe in LONELY DAYS
Even if you stumble, WAY TO GO, YEAY YAY
A muddled rolling star!

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7:28 PM


somehow it felt like a busy weekend.. until now.. that is..

was at dare sat.. ended at abt 8 plus.. then go dinner n celebrate father n uncle bdae.. it was at some place named telok kurau that i nvr heard b4.. they finished eatin alr when i reached ther.. only left cake.. left the place abt ten.. then i met jar waileong n phelan n mun at vivo.. everyone seemed sad.. behind vivo facing the sea.. got sky got sea.. ther were a couple of stars.. after a while we decided to go to jarrvis hm to ton.. but we had to pretend to study.. and so we did.. all i did was x².. y².. it didnt mean anythin.. then scribbled lots of nonsense.. doodled some crap.. wrote my life out.. went dn to kick ball for a while then we slept for a while.. went hm at abt 10.. reached hm at 11.. rushed to church.. was late.. lunch at swensens.. slept thru the ride home.. Zzz..

nw its.. 714pm, feelin tired.. had less than 4hrs of sleep at jarrs hm.. but dn want to sleep.. dreaming's such a waste of time..
whats'NexT?

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6:53 PM


I'm seein red
Don't think you'll have to see my face again
don't have much time for sympathy
Cuz it never happened to me
You feelin blue now
I think you bit off more than you could chew
And now it's time to make a choice
And all I wanna hear is your...

So follow the leader down
And swallow your pride and drown
When there's no place left to go
Maybe thats when you will know
Follow the leader down
And swallow your pride and drown
When theres no place left to go
Maybe thats when you will know

And foolish lies well can't you see
I tried to compromise
Cuz what you say ain't always true
And I can see the tears in your eyes
And what you said now
Can't stop the words from running through my head
And what I do to get through to you
But you'd only do it again

So follow the leader down
And swallow your pride and drown
When there's no place left to go
Maybe that's when you will know
Follow the leader down
And swallow your pride and drown
When there's no place left to go
Maybe that's when you will know

Well I confess, I don't know what to make from all this mess
Don't have much time for sympathy
But it never happened to me
You Feelin down I don't know where i'll be when you come around
And now it's time to make a choice,
And all I wanna hear is your voice..

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1:02 AM


singapore won thailand jus nw!!!.. woohoo.. the atmosphere of the stadium was again veri lively.. we were always bias against thailand.. shouting against the rafree if he gav any yellow cards to our singapore players.. then dono why when got foul in the penalty box then the thailand ask for timeout or smth like that.. make us wait for nth.. so after abt ten mins then it was penalty and singapore scored.. everyone was so happy jumping for joy.. that was the goal that made us won them 2-1.. even after the penalty ther was still time to play.. and when the thailand players took corners.. we would jeer them.. we never cheered for the thailand players.. even when they were singing their national anthem.. we stayed sitted in difiance.. when it was our national anthem.. we stood proud and sang loudly.. how strange we only sang this loudly when thers a call for it.. unlike everyday flag raising in school.. the words hardly come out..

ive lost more than half my voice.. i had sore throat frm even before goin for the game.. so nw its worst.. guess tml nt goin sch..

still havent gotten over.. You

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1:01 AM

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