one door opens.. another one shuts..
someone tell me what is going on.

what i really wanted.. i tried hard but could not get..
what i did not want.. i was given..
what i settle for.. i got almost effortlessly..

and so i wonder..
"And to the angel of the church in Philadelphia write,
'These things says He who is holy, He who is true, He who has the key of David, He who opens and no one shuts, and shuts and no one opens": ...

"fine.. U dont want me.. ill take this city and burn it. ill prove all of U wrong and make U eat Ur words. im not suitable? see me suitable when U see my works all over the cities. see me rebel against this free country. why are U still so interested when Ur not accepting me anyway. why do U care. see me burn this school and all thats been built. Master, Master, where's the dreams that I've been after?" - somewhat how i felt on my way back.. haha.. i was angry.. disappointed.. because i din get what i wanted.. feelings have died down a though i still wonder.. why am i put here?

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8:34 PM




early in the morning
when the sun got in my eye
i felt a heaviness pouring
from a long and crazy night

from within there was a rising
something stuck in my head
a thought of vomiting
how did i get to this state

with eyes wide open
with my senses back together
i smelled something familiar
puke; i saw when i turned


-not a first hand experience but a spectator's words

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7:40 PM


we are not born to handle stress. spirits are contagious. every rose has its thorn. why did i end up here.

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7:30 PM


after school reopened, i so hope for holidays. though, i never wished of school when it was holidays. i wished there is no homework like in secondary school days. yea i know that i should not look back to the past and all, but still.. how i wish. a life without worries, sounds really beautiful. a carefree life with nothing to hurry and get busy with. but back to reality, i am living in a real world. i cant quit school and expect everything to be alright, or can i? yes i love what i am studying. no i dont love what i am studying. generally, its something i like. but specifically i dont exactly like every single thing. how i wish everything is done at school and theres no homework to do at home. ill just be busy at school and i have no worries to take home.

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mayb i could really quit school and be like this guy [link]

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8:12 AM


the whole day,
the tune kept playing,
again and again in my head.
... .. .. ... .. .. ... .. ..

fear of the dark

and now i say
just play it one more time
and again and again..

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how i wish i could linger
i your awesome presence forever.
cos even though i know
you go wherever i may go
its never the same when im left alone.

-the foolish things you do when youre left alone.

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7:50 AM


the future now seems so near
five minutes to a new year

but nothing seemed to change
things still moved on like night to day

scream out loud
the earth still moved like yesterday
i tried to shout
everything still seemed the same

i stood still thinking
is that all?
i looked on wondering
if there's more..

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what do i want?
what do i really want this year?
no idea.
i still feel this void inside.

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9:05 AM

As little children
We would dream of Christmas morn
Of all the gifts and toys
We knew we'd find
But we never realized
A baby born one blessed night
Gave us the greatest gift of our lives

We were the reason
That He gave His life
We were the reason
That He suffered and died
To a world that was lost
He gave all He could give
To show us the reason to live

As the years went by
We learned more about gifts
The giving of ourselves
And what that means
On a dark and cloudy day
A man hung crying in the rain
All because of love, all because of love

I've finally found the reason for living
It's in giving every part of my heart to Him
In all that I do every word that I say
I'll be giving my all just for Him, for Him

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for a time every year,
the world stops to remember.
christmas carols they hear,
to honor the birth of a Saviour. 

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9:15 PM




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no dog can serve two masters
no person can look in two directions
no man can love two women

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7:30 AM

Everybody likes to take a holiday
Everybody likes to take a rest
Spending time together with the family
Sharing lots of love and happiness.

Come on, ring those bells,
Light the Christmas tree,
Jesus is the king
Born for you and me.
Come on, ring those bells,
Every-body say,
Jesus, we remember
This your birthday.

Celebrations come because of something good.
Celebrations we love to recall
Mary had a baby boy in Bethleham
the greatest celebration of all.

Come on, ring those bells,
Light the Christmas tree,
Jesus is the King
Born for you and me.
Come on, ring those bells,
Every-body say,
Jesus, we remember
This your birthday.

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in quick passing days
i felt the my holidays
so easily slipped away

maybe im not used to a short holiday at the end of the year. the year seemed to wrapped up so quickly. 2 weeks? wheres my two months? my first week jus went by, seemed like i made my time worth though i havent done anything i have been wanting to. well now im starting on something; watching the fifth element for schoolwork's sake. how can i say i want my holiday when im already having it?

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6:08 AM


Feliz Navidad
Feliz Navidad
Feliz Navidad
Prospero Ano y Felicidad.

I wanna wish you a Merry Christmas
I wanna wish you a Merry Christmas
I wanna wish you a Merry Christmas
From the bottom of my heart.

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the beauty of observing..
taking time to conversing with..
and stepping into the world of..
a little child.

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6:31 AM


...Nor favour to men of skill;
But time and chance happen to them all.

For man also does not know his time:
Like fish taken in a cruel net.
Like birds caught in a snare,
So the sons of men snared in an evil time,
When it falls suddenly upon them.

but know this, that if the master of the house had known what hour the theif would come, he would have watched and not allowed his house to be broken into. Therefore you also be ready, for the Son of Man is coming at an hour you do not expect.

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9:44 AM


the first fall hurts the most.
the unseen wounds have never healed
i still hope from a fallen rose
i still think of the times with you

those bitter days
those lovely nights
we stayed awake
we lived a life

i told myself to let it go
but my heart just turned cold
i told myself to let it go
but the memories just couldnt go

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we judge others by their actions
we judge ourselves by intentions

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9:22 PM


i have yet to understand why someone would freely give, and give, and give. even after how i did not cherish what was given, again and agin.

-the ways different people express themselves
-the ways different people look at things
-the ways different people react
-the things that make you unique

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10:06 AM


enjoy the process; have the time of your life
stay true to yourself; why compromise for others?
give it your best shot; be satisfied with it.

it has interest me, a fact.
the fact the eagles soar alone.
pigeons and crows fly together. alot together.

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9:43 AM


the wicked flee when no one pursues,
but the righteous are bold as a lion.

afraid
of the unknown
i laid
my mind in fear
disobeyed
went on my own
influenced my peer
like theives
we walked with caution
i saw
the face of fathers
i fled
with thoughts of regret

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1:36 AM


the stress of it has killed the fun
your grace has left me with thanks giving

"you gave what the world couldn't offer me
say what they want say what they want
I are free".. indeed we are.

i do not want to oversleep i do not want to be a heavy sleeper i do not want to oversleep i do not want to be a heavy sleeper i do not want to oversleep i do not want to be a heavy sleeper i do not want to oversleep i do not want to be a heavy sleeper i do not want to oversleep i do not want to be a heavy sleeper i do not want to oversleep i do not want to be a heavy sleeper
i do not want to oversleep i do not want to be a heavy sleeper i do not want to oversleep i do not want to be a heavy sleeper i do not want to oversleep i do not want to be a heavy sleeper i do not want to oversleep i do not want to be a heavy sleeper i do not want to oversleep i do not want to be a heavy sleeper i do not want to oversleep i do not want to be a heavy sleeper
i do not want to oversleep i do not want to be a heavy sleeper i do not want to oversleep i do not want to be a heavy sleeper i want to wake up whenever i want i want to be a light sleeper i want to wake up whenever i want i want to be a light sleeper i want to wake up whenever i want i want to be a light sleeper i want to wake up whenever i want i want to be a light sleeper i want to wake up whenever i want i want to be a light sleeper i want to wake up whenever i want i want to be a light sleeper i want to wake up whenever i want i want to be a light sleeper
(why dont i jus ask for limitless life so i dont ever neeed to sleep. wooo) i want limitless life wohoo i want limitless life wohoo i want limitless life wohoo i want limitless life wohoo i want heaven on earth.

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3:44 PM


till when will you feed the hunger
of the rising generation
while they thirst for water
you are caught in a power struggle

are you tired of your corruption
or rather be in the mud a little longer
how good does it feel
to have the colours bow down before you
how did it ever get to here
is any of you fit for us to fear

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4:41 AM


Unless the LORD builds my house,
I labor in vain who build it;
Unless the LORD guards the city,
The watchman stays awake in vain.

It is vain for me to rise up early,
To sit up late,
To eat the bread of sorrows;
For so He gives His beloved sleep.

psalm127

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yes its late
and im still awake
on the bed
staying up in vain...

no i cant sleep
and its now three
my mind's not at ease
cos i cant sleep..

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10:31 AM


Angels Never Knew

Angels never knew the joy that is mine
For the blood has never washed their sins away
Thought they sing in Heaven there will come a time
When silently they listen to me sing Amazing Grace

It's a song holy angels cannot sing
Amazing grace
How sweet the sound
It's a song holy angels cannot sing
I once was lost
But now I'm found

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8:23 AM


its probably being posted everywhere..
~
There are many prodigal sons
On our city streets they run
Searching for shelter
There are homes broken down
People’s hopes have fallen to the ground
From failures

There are schools full of hatred
Even churches have forsaken
Love and mercy
May we see this generation
In its state of desperation
For Your glory

There are tears from the saints
For the lost and unsaved
We’re crying for them come back home
~

so this is just part of the song, Tears of the saints.

All we like sheep have gone astray; we have turned, every one to his own way; And the LORD has laid on him the iniquity of us all

...And if he should find it, he rejoices more over that sheep than over the ninety-nine that did not go astray. Even so it is not the will of your Father who is in heaven that one of these little ones should perish. -matt 18:10-14

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haha.. F one.. truly, -the race is not to the swift, Nor the battle to the strong, Nor bread to the wise, Nor riches to men of understanding, Nor favor to men of skill; But time and chance happen to them all. ... For man also does not know his time: Like fish taken in a cruel net, Like birds caught in a snare, So the sons of men are snared in an evil time, when it falls suddenly upon them.

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11:42 AM


came back just nowfrom caregruop. and after eating and watching, i went to proverbs 26 cos it was the 26th. and at the first verse; As snow in summer and rain in harvest, So honor is not fitting for a fool.
interesting to me..

this somehow seemed liked how i felt just now;
'Then Samuel took the horn of oil and anointed him in the midst of his brothers; and the Spirit of the LORD came upon David from that day forward. So Samuel arose and went to Ramah.' -Samuel 16:13



Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth

Would care to know my name 
Would care to feel my hurt 
Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star 
Would choose to light the way 
For my ever wandering heart 

Not because of who I am 
But because of what You've done 
Not because of what I've done 
But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading 
Here today and gone tomorrow 
A wave tossed in the ocean 
Vapor in the wind 
Still You hear me when I'm calling 
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling 
And You've told me who I am 
I am Yours, I am Yours 

Who am I, that the eyes that see my sin 
Would look on me with love and watch me rise again 
Who am I, that the voice that calmed the sea 
Would call out through the rain 
And calm the storm in me 

Not because of who I am 
But because of what You've done 
Not because of what I've done 
But because of who You are 

I am a flower quickly fading 
Here today and gone tomorrow 
A wave tossed in the ocean 
Vapor in the wind 
Still You hear me when I'm calling 
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling 
And You've told me who I am 
I am Yours 

Not because of who I am 
But because of what You've done 
Not because of what I've done 
But because of who You are 

I am a flower quickly fading 
Here today and gone tomorrow 
A wave tossed in the ocean 
Vapor in the wind 
Still You hear me when I'm calling 
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling 
And You've told me who I am 
I am Yours 

I am Yours 
Whom shall I fear 
Whom shall I fear 

I am Yours                                       by casting crowns

 but you have heard my innermost prayers. 

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11:43 AM


a beautiful song that was played just now.

The love of God is greater far
Than tongue or pen can ever tell
It goes beyond the highest star
And reaches to the lowest hell
The guilty pair, bowed down with care
God gave His Son to win
His erring child He reconciled
And pardoned from his sin

Could we with ink the ocean fill
And were the skies of parchment made
Were every stalk on earth a quill
And every man a scribe by trade

To write the love of God above

Would drain the oceans dry
Nor could the scroll contain the whole
Though stretched from sky to sky

Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
O love of God, how rich and pure!
How measureless and strong!
It shall forevermore endure
The saints' and angels' song

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deeper than the deepest oceans,
wider than the widest skies.
time and space can never measure,
nor can any man know why,
this love of god that was freely given.

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12:04 AM


kool.. i found my pastor in youtube when i was browsing recently..

http://www.youtube.com/user/JosephPrinceMedia

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5:17 PM


last day of school. mixed feelings. would probably stop blogging here. mayb ill close the blog.. mayb ill hide it somewhere.. ill see.. mayb ill be too lazy to do anything.

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5:27 PM


how we tend to judge people by their actions,
and ourselves by our intentions..

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4:37 AM


just wanted to write something so true i heard in arrow service just now..
-you can give without loving,
but you can't love without giving.

that was what God did by giving up his son in love for me.

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11:58 PM


im sure its true..
you will not want to wait.. to do something you really like..

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5:40 AM


ill probably not be blogging in a very long time.. as i have not been already.. maybe only after i have learned to manage my time more wisely.. ill jus drop by if i ever have anythin i so wish to blog about..

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3:00 AM


yesterday..
just came back from school,
before that..
just came back from cruise,
before that..
just came back from arrow camp.

alright.. i just summarised what happened since last tuesday. a satisfying holiday. but now got homework.
arrow camp was great.. my first arrow camp.. was at batam.. slow paced but fun.. compared to dare camps.. this camp was better.. went on wednesday.. came back on saturday..
And on sunday.. went to cruise.. pretty kool.. first time on one.. took many photos.. but most of them not nice.. still learning how to make the best of my camera.. the cruise docked at peneng and phuket to tour around.. bought some clothes at the call at peneng.. go there just eat and eat.. though i din seemed to get any bigger.. got breakfast lunch dinner supper.. and its all buffet.. it wasnt as big as i imagined.. but not that small either.. four days of relaxing.. ya..
straight after i came back home from cruise.. had to go to school.. to do project.. yes ah.. finished visual audio storytelling assignment alr.. in that few hours.. it wasnt rushed but it turned out great.. a great sense of satisfaction after that last night.. now i should continue the rest of my homework.. not even clear what i have to do.. Zzz



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2:59 PM


stressed out the whole day.. yea.. been so busy for the past 24hrs.. not until i came home. not a very fantastic day, but im glad its all behind me...

and now.. BEHOLD.. For the HOLY DAYS are here.. yes.. the holidays.. song bo.. woo hoo.. or smth like that. though its only 2 weeks, im gonna enjoy it to my fullest.. im really gonna care less about school these 2 weeks though there are homework to do and goin back to school to go back to school. gonna spend my time doing the things i could not find the time to do during the school term. ince the tart of chool when i entered poly, it wasnt exactly mooth ailing a i thought poly life would be. i should jus enjoy wherever i am, wherever god has placed me.


its late alr.. very late.. i got to go to bed.. NOT.. ima gonna ton at brinda's wireless with the same few guys..

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11:08 PM


learning is a never ending journey
growing is a phenomenon beyond stature

' the more i know, the more i know i don't know. '

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1:03 AM


loneliness, is an emotional state.
being alone, is a physical state.

yet its possible to feel lonely in the mist of a crowd. and its possible not to feel lonely even when left alone. it all starts off from the mind. are you alone? or are you lonely?

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11:52 PM


jus came back from the soccer match singapore vs uzbekistan.. the first time i heard this country. it was fun as usual watching the match, even though singapore lost badly. listening to those around me cheering and shouting was very entertaining.

lotsa work to do.. wish i could rest.. the bed is so tempting. i hope ill get through till the morning light.

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11:37 PM


a short post.. after a long week. the feeling was long. theres lots of things to do. especially when its going to be the last week before the break.. got assignments to hand in. higher percentage ones. its not really fun to be busy. hopefully for the coming week ill post one entry a day. hopefully.

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4:46 PM


woo hoo.. jus came back from the zone koncert. song bo.. woo hoo.. song bo.. power ah.. cant wait for them to come back again..jus cant describe the feeling.. the atmosphere.. heaven on earth.. kinda..

the lights went off. it was pitch dark. the crowd was roaring. they got restless. light sticks were flying all over. the drums played a beat. the crowd was cheering louder. the band started playing. "are you ready?". everyone went wild. the floodlights were on. the music was close to deafening. it was crazy.. like a dream of some sort. somewhat fantasy.. and i told god, i wish you were here. every single one of you out there.

It is not a human right
To stare not fight
While broken nations dream
Open up our eyes, so blind
That we might find
The Mercy for the need

Singin Hey Now
Fill our hearts with your compassion
Hey Now
As we hold to our confession
Yeah

It is not too far a cry
To much to try
To help the least of these
Politics will not decide
If we should rise
And be your hands and feet

Singing Hey Now
Fill our hearts with your compassion
Hey Now
As we hold to our confession

Woah-oh-oh,
God be the solution
Woah-oh-oh
We will be Your hands and be Your feet.
Yeah, yeah

Higher than a circumstance
Your promise stands
Your love for all to see
Higher than protest line and dollar signs
Your love is all we need

Only you can mend the broken heart
And cause the blind to see
Erase complete the sinners past
And set the captives free
Only you can take the widows cry
And cause her heart to sing
Be a father to the fatherless
Our savior and our king
We will be your hands, we will be your feet
We will run this race
On the darkest place, we will be your light
We will be your light

We will be your hands , we will be your feet
We will run this race for the least of these
In the darkest place, we will be your light
We will be your light

We will run we will run
We will run with the solution

We will be your hands we will be your feet
We will run this race for the least of these
In the darkest place we will be your light
We will be your light

i saw the world lost in darkness. without hope and life. i saw their need.
i saw.. my time, my generation,my purpose.

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1:27 AM


alright after being awake for afew hours, ive finally ready to start my homework all. most likely not goin to sleep, and jus go straight to school later. cos i woke up at 5 plus jus nw.. tuesday, one long day. i would probably sleep in the late afternoon lectures. and now, i got quite a few things to chiong.. some i dont know how to do. at least ive finally got into the mood to start.. lol.. thank god for holy days(holidays).

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7:46 PM

Casting Crowns - Who Am I

Who am I?
That the Lord of all the earth,
Would care to know my name,
Would care to feel my hurt.
Who am I?
That the bright and morning star,
Would choose to light the way,
For my ever wondering heart.

Not because of who I am.
But because of what you've done.
Not because of what I've done.
But because of who you are.

I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow.
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord you catch me when I'm falling,
And you told me who I am.
I am yours.
I am yours.

Who am I?
That the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
And watch me rise again
Who am I?
That the voice that calm the sea,
Would call out through the rain,
And calm the storm in me.

Not because of who I am.
But because what of youve done.
Not because of what I've done.
But because of who you are.

I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow.
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord you catch me when I'm falling,
And you told me who I am.
I am yours.

Not because of who I am.
But because of what you've done.
Not because of what I've done.
But because of who you are.

I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow.
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord you catch me when I'm falling,
You told me who I am.
I am yours.
I am yours.

Whom shall I fear?
Whom shall I fear?
'Cuz I am yours.
I am yours.

somehow, i stumbled upon this song just now. and it was one heaven of a song. peaceful, and full of meaning. for the king of kings would care about me, a little one who cares not but myself. on this little earth comepared to the infinite universe that is expanding as i am typing right now. yet he never leaves me even when i fail or do wrong, forever here to guide me every step of the way.


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10:48 PM


it was one whole day at school though it actually ended at 12. spend a coupole of hours drawing the perspective of the block. not a fruitful drawing that cos i din had any feel to draw. then went to have dinner with family.. the jap food was alot alot.. eat until very full.. it was then that i was about to reach home that got call to go play soccer..
and it was when i went to play soccer.. that i played bare footed until there was a hole in my foot.. not really but thats what it feels and looks like.. probably a blister, quite a big one. on the bll of my foot..
i peeled off the thick skin, showing the delicate red flesh that was neither skin nor did it bleed. it was thin and sensitive everytime it touches anythin. it made walking difficult as i needed to limp to avoid it touching anything as much as possible. it wasnt unbearably painful, but it jus felt it felt like it was about to break. i wanted to put up a picture of it, but it seemed too gore-ry. literally a big red circle in my foot.
now i just want to sleep.. too tired to do any homework though i have quite a few to hand in on tuesday.

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11:46 PM


great.. i lied on my bed and the next thing i knew i slept through and woke up at 3thirty.. my intention was to do my design fund to hand in later.. but since i still have time i better do it nw.. i guess resting first was better.. at least i did not wake up too late.. if not no time to do..

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4:17 AM


today is the first time i..
pon school.. not lesson or lecture, cos i pon lecture a couple of times alr, but one day of school. one day of school of one lecture.. Zzz
i know.. i should have done it much earlier.. or.. i should never have done it.. but today is jus woke up late.. one hour later than i should.. fifteen mins to start of lecture and i was still in bed. even i i chiong, the earliest i would reach is one hour late. no point.. late tap card also considered absent. i rather get more sleep.. sleep sleep.. something i hardly got the past week. monday + tuesday total sleep = 8 hours. Zzz..

stop to sit down..
stop and lie down..
look at the clouds.

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3:30 PM


no homework. Enjoy life. yes indeed. ill never enjoy life if i hate my homework. so its not true that i dont have any homework at hand. in fact, i have quite a few.

-thumbnails to show for colour theory on monday
-report to hand in,
-research on SHIRTS to show for concept development on tuesday
-drawing of corridor to show on thursday
-pictogram assignment to hand in on friday

i have realised that consistency is important, though im not that consistent after all. and up till now, i still sometimes live a nortunal lifestyle even on school days.

And currently theres this -research on SHIRTS that i have to do, which i have no idea what i have to do even though i have the powerpoint slides the lecturer presented with. here is the almost exact copy of what was on the slides.

Assignment Specifications

Jiunn’s Hawaiian Shirt (Brand) is launching a print advertisement w/ the slogan:

“Earth’s Most Creative Shirt!”

You are responsible to generate ideas of the main image.


Things to do before next class:

*Collect at least 2 pages of found images of SHIRTS. One is the research of shirts you think are creative, while the other are found images that associate with / inspired by SHIRT.

*Also, for at least 1 page, use the word SHIRT as source to start generate ideas for “Earth’s Most Creative Shirt!”

*Use your found images as inspiration & Jiunn’s Mind Mapping technique to record your idea generating processes.

well the thing is, as cool as this assignment may sound, i dont understand what the to do.. --? neither do my friends. too konfusing..

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11:56 PM


courage is not just boldness.
but boldness to face your giants.
for boldness to face the lesser comes to everyone.

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12:51 AM


its been one heaven of a week.. well not exactly.. i got c for 2 exercises.. urghH.. unfair luh.. haiZ.. it was just down to whether there was skill or not.. not how much effort put into the work.. but what can i do.. giving up is justoo stupid.. i can only work harder in my next assignments.. its a damn bloody unfair world.. but my God is also unfair. unfairly good.

really seems like i wont be playing soccer in nyp..ever since ive come into this school ive never played soccer, but started playing basketball almost every other few days.. cos my school got 2 basketball courts while only got one soccer court that is very big and used for more than jus soccer.. so i scored my first basketball goal when i came here.. the most recent i played was yesterday.. with my class.. it was fun.. i no longer see it as a sport im afraid of.. or im afraid of it lesser now.. the first time i played i was so scared the ball i avoided it.. i jus handicapped my team in the 3v3.. haha.. in the second time i played i intercepted my first ball..blah blah blah and it goes on.. of course im not that good at all.. and im still a pus! to the ball sometimes..

how sweet the sound of victory,
even in captivity.

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6:29 AM


so yesterday everyone in our class dressed up and presented, there was a weird ?vampire?, alot of jap freaks, and korean, hip hop, a bouncer, slash the guitarist, a black sailor moon, a nerd geek, a sasuke, an aizen, a gara, a clown, a panda, a ghost. should i put up the photos??? though i did not take any. my stupid camera busted me when i needed it most by no more batree. Zzz only got those that from other ppl take one..

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2:45 AM


been so busy to have extra time to blog.. or mayb i was jus too lazy.. heavy workload from school.. hand in assignments and exercise at hand, then get new assignments and exercises. so its like not a day without homework to do. unless of course i finish it all quickly, which seems impossible because i have 5 modules (i think) and theres always work at hand for every one of them. finish one, got another one, and another one. so the best is always enjoy whatever i am doing. though i jus finished my colour theory assignment which is so badly done. planning to stay up till time to go to school. chiong the rest of my work. creating a new blog soon, for another purpose, but not enough time these days, so maybe in another month.

what would you do if a million dropped down one day on you?
would it slip off your hands as quickly as it came?
or will it grow to greater wealth?

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2:53 AM


the time is now,
to do what is really in your heart.
the time is now,
to enjoy the moment.
for time can pass before you know it,
time can take forever,
but none can ever turn back time,
only to regret in their heart.

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9:59 PM


If it doesnt kill me,
it will build me.

learning to use ink isnt very smooth sailing, especially when the teacher has such high expectations. with words like" my five year old kid can do also", "this one cannot, very messy. you are not picasso". and even saying that my pear looks like and apple.. "this is an apple, this is also an apple. make up your mind whether U want to do apple or pear. haha, i can only laught about it. and learn from my mistakes. crude but true remarks.
accepting my wrong was the first step to getting it right.

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9:46 PM


its been about a week since that last post on the first day to school..
and it has been one ... of a week. ive seen the good, the bad the ugly. things are not easy, but with God all things all possible. learning how to manage my time is just too necessary.

life is unfair. life is difficult. what is your source of assurance when times are bad?

[http://www.thezone.org.sg] -the concert that will change your life.

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12:37 AM


it is with a vision that people achieve their dreams,
it is also with a vision that people achieve nothing.
but it is without a vision that people perish.

secondary school life was just playing and playing. ending up in the last class was no better to motivate me. no doubt it was fun, the whole class had fun doing badly. most of us had visions, some of us did not care. but i believe that many of us had a common vision in school; which was to have fun. and no doubt we got what we wanted, we didnt really have to work hard for it.
but i shall ask myself, what do i really want in poly life. what do i want to get out of it?

If i know how to get there,
it is a goal.
If i don't know how to get there,
it is a dream.


---
song bo , today first few lessons canceled. left lecture that last one 2 hours only. and i should be going soon, especially when it takes one hour to get to school.

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9:44 AM


when the giants of life comes,
will they break you?
or will you break through?

the giants of life comes,
they come to all,
will you defeat it?
or will you fall?

life is unfair.
the giants are there,
will you face it?
will you fear it?
will you peservere?
will you surrender?

the trials of life,
the troubles of life,
they come they go,
we run we chiong,

to reign,
or to be reigned over?
by the life you think is worthless.

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3:56 AM


we crave what we cant attain, and we dont cherish what we have.
quite true, though not entirely

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7:12 AM


your today is the result of your past actions,
your future will be the result of your decisions today.
and
your future is anytime after now.
and now is the time a change can start.
by changing the attitude towards each day,
changing the value of each day,
changing the quality of each day,
because each single day is powerful.

whether good or bad,
don't let the past hold you back ,
but let the future push you forward.

you cannot escape the responsibilities of tomorrow
by avoiding it today. -Abraham Lincoln


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1:44 AM


more often than not,
how we see ourselves, is how we see others see us..
And we live our lives according to how we see ourselves..
a simple example would be you seeing yourself as a loser,
affecting you to live the life of a loser.
yet seeing yourself victorious,
would manifest a victorious life.

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3:25 AM


everyone thinks of changing the world, but no one thinks of changing themselves. -Leo Tolstoy

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1:13 AM


its not about how great the problem is..
its about how great the solution is.

thinking of migrating my blog to multiply..
well.. maybe in another year or so..

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5:15 AM


no one is perfect,
even someone good has faults,
its the degree of inperfection.
but in the end,
no one is entirely good; or perfect.

why not appreciate others for their good,
instead to fault them.

positive actions would produce positive results,
negative actions would in its way produce negative results.

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2:38 PM




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11:14 AM


What would you do, if you knew that you would never be sick again?
What would you do, if you knew that you would never grow tired?
What would you do, if you knew that nothing can hurt you in any way?
What would you do, if you knew that death can no longer hold you down?

more often than not, the fear of these things has held us down.

so what would you do? if you knew.

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10:23 AM


For all things money can buy,
theres much more money cant.

money can buy you the most expensive food,
but not the ability to taste and enjoy it.
money can buy you the most expensive bed,
but not quality sleep.
money can buy you a person,
but without the person's love.
money can buy a big house,
but its an empty home.
money can buy U anything you can see in this world,
but not what is beyond the tangible realm.

the fact is,
even with great wealth,
it would never satisfy,
because there is no limit.

the fact is,
people seek money,
in hope to get what they think money can get them,
but they never found what they were looking for.

have you found what you were looking for? hahaha...

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12:38 PM


tonight i shall blog about something not concerning myself..

Food For Enjoyment
so whats the point of eating? when the food is not enjoyed.
whats the point of overeating? when you hurt from the bloatedness. and suffer from more than you should.
whats the point of eating what you dont like? just because you dont wanna waste it. saving that little bit by thinking of the "starving children in Africa" wont help them at all. haha.. so save yourself instead. (lol. but no offence meant to Africa)
whats the point of rushing through the food? just to be the first to finish. only because we are in a rat race, a world competing to be the first.
haha.. just because food is more than just something to fill the stomach, and that i have a blog to write what i want..

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5:35 AM


so much for the great ambition of making a new blogskin.. all ive been doing these days was playing GTA san andreas on my com.. and nothing much else..

im still waiting for my packaGE!! im a little impatient but i know its on its way.. zzz.. woo hoo.. im going to nyp.. not really sure where it is.. where im going, its gonna be great.. too bad for sp for not accepting me.. its jus their loss.. And where im going, it shall be good.. yeA:)

-if there is a reason to love, then there may be a reason not to love..
-for human love would surely disappoint..

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9:59 AM


its been a while since.. ive not been accomplishing much these past few.. benn playing alot of.. especially when i just got a gta san andrews on my pc..

now that i think about it, i would be just as happy if i dn get to DID.. the digital media design is not bad also.. only thing is that nyp is a bit far..

current working on a new blogskin.. just trying to figure out the coding and all.. the design is more or less there, and neither am i goin to spend too much effort on it cos i dn really care about how it looks, dont need to be awesomely stunning beautiful.. LOl..

and to U out there behind the screen who is looking at this right now.. i dont like it.. so just dont tell me.. yea i know it sounds like a total contradiction but its true..

-man cannot live by bread alone.

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6:03 PM




most recently done, less than an hour ago.. white fabric paint on my newly bought 5dollars giodano shirt..

-a merry heart does good like medicine :)

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3:56 AM



recently completed a few days ago.. hitsugaya done on a shirt for daryl.. but not say very well done la.. in terms of colour and the drawing.. but overall ok..

... the good i want to do, i do not.
the evil i do not want to do, i do.
for in my flesh dwells no good thing.

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10:41 PM






my recent shirt done for yong bin.. the colours are not right.. especially concerning the hair.. mainly because i do not watch naruto and dont know how these characters should turn out.. not well done in my opinion.. well it could have been better.. but worth a shot in unfamiliar grounds..

things have been a little disappointing, but i am not discouraged..

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4:00 AM







i should hav posted this long ago.. but better later than never.. took these during first day of chinese new year.. these are jus the best few from what many i took.. while any other typical person would take pictures of themselves, of families of long lost cousins, i took pictures of these little ones that caught my eye.. the first little kid is.. i dono who.. the other 2 are my cousins.. who look really alike.. and talk rather alike also.. the childlike innocence they have that i would want for myself.. im still a child, haha.. a child of the most high god..

-The world is full of personalities, but what about character?

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2:00 AM


alright finally some peace and quiet.. i did a zaraki kenpachi on my plain white tee yesterday night.. it turned out rather alright.. but not very defined throughout the whole picture.. here it is..
and i jus found out my name is on yong bin's blog.. ahhh.. he writes the weirdest and funniest things.. and my name is on his blog..

when you fight for something, you have to defend..

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5:54 PM


just came back from a long day.. and rather tiring one.. woke up early to church at indoor stadium.. pastor mark preach very good.. after service i went with caregroup go kentucky fried chicken to eat lunch.. after discuss long long.. we finally went to east coast.. woo hoo.. kool rite.. we wet cycling.. all dressed up in my marshal and skinnies and high cutt, ready to cycle.. LOL.. i rented the small bike.. unlike everyone else got mountain bike.. so i learnt one thing.. the small small bike can ride, but only when i want to cycle doubly hard.. it was only a short distance.. but the bike made things not so easy.. and cycling in a not so sporty attire.. haha.. but that doesnt sop the fun of it all.. and when all that was not enough.. i went to watch movie with my family.. the jay choo basketball show.. a so~so only show.. not really that great..

now im tired wan to go sleep.. its very late alr..

-but god does not glory in creation, but in redemption..


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11:31 PM



i just.. watched bleach movie; memories of nobody, which was kinda nice.. something to watch when ive alr seen the manga to the very recent chapter.. better drawing than the every week anime.. and i still like zaraki kenpachi..

i also jus came back from west coast.. went to darryl house cos he invited the caregroup.. we were there for a while.. then left the few of us; charris, wei xuan, darryl and the beloved of the lord. we went to west coast to play.. ahaha.. really fun.. climb up the high high red paramad.. took 4 pictures.. then play around the others fun fun stuff ther.. then while playing i found an eagle.. and we played with the eagle.. then i found a string and tied it to the eagle so it wont fly away.. it was fun.. and the eagle.. i brought it wherever i went and then brought it home..



one of the pictures that i took jus nw.. of the kite that i found on the floor.. i like this one because of how i shows the eagle.. a creature created to soar above its storms and ride the winds.. made for greatness..

-for the creations of god far surpasses the creations of man..


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11:41 PM


Quick bloging before i go sleep soon.. cos ive been sleeping quite early these few days.. since saturday.. i slept before twelve.. a bit early for someone who normally sleeps during the day.. sunday monday and tuesday slept around ten.. and after this im goin to bed..

ive been out the whole day.. went to school play batminton.. at first wan go swimming but cannot.. then we went to jurong the swimming place to go swim swim.. went to eat and walk around.. jus bath after reachin home.. quite a tiring..

thats it.. im goin to bed alr.. too lazy.. jud wanna get some rest..

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9:42 PM


sian.. in the end nvr meet yong bin all yesterday.. suddenly called off.. Zzz..

and the peter pan.. bluff me one.. i thought is animation.. come out is the real life acting one.. so i nvr watch.. Zzz.. fridays.. busy fridays.. and saturdays.. and sundays..

-it is impossible to look at creation and say that there is no creator..

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5:19 AM


its now.. close to nine.. ive stayed up all night.. cos i woke up at eight last night.. jus a bit more.. and ill meet yong bin all at 12 cos his birthday..

the past many hours.. i watched 3 movies.. played psp.. ate.. to pass the time.. its now ten.. i was drawing for fun.. nw gonna bath.. and i got a movie i wanna watch.. Peter Pan.. LOL..

-cold hearted, and hot headed
or warm hearted, and a cool mind..
... smth like that..

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8:48 AM






in relation to my pervious entry, here are the pictures.. well.. ya.. these photos are badly taken..

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4:18 AM


its been a rather.. "lazy days and lazy nights" for me these few days.. though there were a couple of diy stuff that i did recently..

i studdded my black shoes.. and added a chain to it.. but only on one side..

i re-bleached my jeans.. now it has a smoother gradient.. the bottom now very bleached.. the on top still more or less the same.. the knee area a bit mor.. whatever it is.. its better than earlier on.. and next to lace back the holes..

then i did up my black skinnies.. sewed a zipper.. which had nice stitchings to it.. put up some studds.. that didnt turned out very well.. hooked on a chain on the side.. overall seemed alright.. except for the studds that dont stay on well..

ltr then i upload picture.. Zzz

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2:17 AM


You hold the future in Your hands
You know my dreams and You have a plan
And as You light my way, I'll follow You

My eyes on all of the above
My soul secure in all You've done
My minds made up
And You are the only one for me

Jesus, Savior, in my life you are everything
My future decided, I will praise Your name
And I know that I am, I am Yours
Yeah, I know that that I am, I am Yours

With all the earth in Your command
You are the rock on which I stand
And as I live each day, I'll follow You

Aren't afraid, aren't ashamed Lord we know who we are
We are your people and we won't be silent
Unified hear us cry at the top of our lungs
You our God and we will not be shaken

my future decided.. every part of it so true.. i especially like the " Aren't afraid, aren't ashamed Lord we know who we are"... onwards.. i would always like to shout it out loud when its being played live.. this song jus makes me wanna dance.. for i am not ashamed of the gospel.. speaking of that line.. reminds me of another song..

when You found me
my whole world changed
i’m redeemed by Your life
let the earth sing
You are freedom
turn my darkness to light

You welcome me in
with open arms
into unending light

i’m not ashamed of the gospel Lord
Your power Your love
You saved my soul
now i’m alive in You
i live in the risen Son

i'm not ashamed.. now i found an album i dont have.. another song that jus makes me dance in the presence of god.. for i am free to be who i am because of the cross.. ill add it in later.. soon..


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6:14 AM


today collect oh? levels results.. my results were.. not that bad.. but not say very good either.. ok okay la.. but it doesnt matter much anyway.. ill still get in to the course i want.. not by my efforts.. but by god's grace..

And whoever said that the academic results of someone would determine his future.. not at all.. we hav so much to live for.. so much more to live on.. and i will not be tied down by a powerless cert.. im only.. i think seventeen.. and ive not even lived a quart of my life.. so much to live for.. so much waiting for me.. im not sayin that i hav forever.. but theres always a second chance in life.. its jus a matter of giving yourself that chance..

-why trade your precious diamonds for sweets..
just because of the lack of knowledge of what you have..

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5:02 AM


seems like a long time since ive posted.. been a little busy.. surfing the virtual diy community.. from sites like threadbanger, craftzine, makezine, instructables..

and i jus tapered my school pants recently.. with help from my mom.. fitted jus nicely.. except for it having a little defects here and there.. but turned out quite right.. considering it was my first time tapering pants..

went cycling yesterday with phelan.. was kind of boring cos we jus cycled to skate park.. following his idea of going ther to graffiti.. it was so dark.. i couldnt take any nice pictures of it.. so hoping to go ther again when the sun is shinning so that i can get a picture of what i did.. quite bored la.. hoping to be able to cycle to east coast again some time soon.. while phelan is too tired that hes sleeping now.. :0 zzZ

and finally.. the results are coming out.. yeS ah.. and im goin to sp.. school of design.. at least that is the desire of my heart.. and im not settling for second best..

-meekness; strength under control

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4:48 AM


jus changed my phone yesterday.. pretty kool and classy.. lols.. i stayed up yesterday.. and slept abt 12 after gettin the phone.. then i woke up jus nw at 9pm..

its now eighthirty am.. im gonna bath soon and then sleep mayb at 10 eleven..

-a man is great when he lives a life beyond himself..

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3:40 AM


jus finished it..
isnt is great?
i dont care what you say anyway..
though it looks unfinished..
simple and straight forward..
spent more on the pictures..
thanks to the movie the passion..
i used the pics from there..
and put them together..

the reason that i live..

-great wealth can never buy great health..

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6:13 AM


im working on a new blogskin..
mayb done in another night..
while ill be lazzing around for now..

-when good men stay silent, evil reigns..

Mighty To Save lyrics

Everyone needs compassion
Love that’s never failing
Let mercy fall on me
Everyone needs forgiveness
The kindness of a Saviour
The hope of nations


Saviour
He can move the mountains
My God is mighty to save
He is mighty to save
Forever
Author of salvation
He rose and conquered the grave
Jesus conquered the grave


So take me as You find me
All my fears and failures
Fill my life again
I give my life to follow
Everything I believe in
Now I surrender


Shine Your light and let the whole world see
We’re singing
For the glory of the risen King

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8:58 PM


[Dream as if you'll live forever; live as if you'll die tomorrow. - james dean, well wad do you know.. james dean died in a car crash.. haha.. exactly as he said.. rebel without a pause indeed.. ]

im wondering wads the big deal about another day.. so what if this day has a new year to it?.. its jus one digit different to it.. why ya need a 2007 change to a 2008 to call for such a big bang celebration? nothin grand abt it.. haha.. mayb im jus crazy too..

a new year.. to me it means a new start to things.. every year has its season.. new beginnings.. new giants.. new victories.. more importantly.. this year is a year of manifested blessings for me and my house.. yea.. no doubt about it..

yea man.. in another.. erm.. err.. about 9hrs ltr.. ill be gettin my new table.. the new addition to my room.. swt.. so ima go turn in early.. (if turn in means sleep)

- to give to others.. without expecting anything in return..
-to give to others.. because you really mean for them to have it..
-to give to others.. the best you can give to them..
-to give to others.. because you first have much..


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1:11 AM


... to stand up and defend for yourself?
or... to not defend yourself?
or ... to stand up and defend, not for yourself but for the greater cause of others..



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3:48 PM


ahhh..
woke up with my body all aching..
jus cos i was at sentosa yesterday..
played so much at the beach..
played rugby, it was a crazy scene..
played soccer with some wild kids..
built castles that were sandy..
swan to the other side of sea..

so it was a long day at sentosa.. we did all of that.. rugby was so crazy, soccer with some ang moh kids.. playin with the sand and making balls.. it was all damn fun.. so now.. my body is aching..

-just because others have given up on you..
-doesnt mean its time to give up on yourself..

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11:53 AM


i dont remember if ive ever put the lyrics to solution..
but im gonna do it anyway..

It is not a human right
To stare not fight
While broken nations dream
Open up our eyes, so blind
That we might find
The Mercy for the need

Singin Hey Now
Fill our hearts with your compassion
Hey Now
As we hold to our confession
Yeah

It is not too far a cry
To much to try
To help the least of these
Politics will not decide
If we should rise
And be your hands and feet

Singing Hey Now
Fill our hearts with your compassion
Hey Now
As we hold to our confession

Woah-oh-oh,
God be the solution
Woah-oh-oh
We will be Your hands and be Your feet.
Yeah, yeah

Higher than a circumstance
Your promise stands
Your love for all to see
Higher than protest line and dollar signs
Your love is all we need

Only you can mend the broken heart
And cause the blind to see
Erase complete the sinners past
And set the captives free
Only you can take the widows cry
And cause her heart to sing
Be a father to the fatherless
Our savior and our king
We will be your hands, we will be your feet
We will run this race
On the darkest place, we will be your light
We will be your light

We will be your hands , we will be your feet
We will run this race for the least of these
In the darkest place, we will be your light
We will be your light (we’ll say/sing?)

We will run we will run
We will (run with the solution?) (2x)

We will be your hands we will be your feet
We will run this race for the least of these
In the darkest place we will be your light
We will be your light

-solution by hillsongs united

And the song should be playing by now..
in accoustic version.

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11:31 PM


strange isnt it?
we depreciate what we used..
we appreciate what we lose..

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4:51 PM


I was sure by now,God,
that You would have reached down
and wiped our tears away,
stepped in and saved the day.
But once again, I say amen
and it's still raining
as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain,
"I'm with you"
and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
the God who gives and takes away.

And I'll praise you in this storm
and I will lift my hands
for You are who You are
no matter where I am
and every tear I've cried
You hold in your hand
You never left my side
and though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm

I remember when I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry to You
and raised me up again
my strength is almost gone how can I carry on
if I can't find You
and as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
the God who gives and takes away


I lift my eyes onto the hills
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth
I lift my eyes onto the hills
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth

beautiful song by casting crowns, praise you in the storm.

i will praise you all my days..
in the good times..
and even the bad..

for U are faithful..
even when i am not..

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3:16 AM


he that walks with wise men shall be wise,
a companion of fools shall be destroyed.

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11:53 AM


christ is the reason for christmas. dont cross out the meaning in christmas..
jesus is the reason for the season..
though this isnt the real time that was his birth..

the one who flung the stars in their place..
the one who spoke the earth into movement..
you stepped into our world of darkness..
you came down to our level..
to save us helpless and weak..
the king of angels..
born into no royalty..
to fulfill the father's will..
to die on the cross..
friends, acquaintances and lover..
brought far from him..
soldiers gambled for his clothes..
the father turned his back on him..
and he cried out..
it is finished..
and forever it will be..

He came born to this earth..
to die for all of mankind..

this season..
we celebrate your birth..

happy birthday jesus

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11:22 PM

A thousand times I've failed
Still Your mercy remains And should I stumble again
I'm caught in Your grace
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame

Your will above all else
My purpose remains
The art of losing myself
In bringing You praise
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame

In my heart and my soul
Lord I give You control
Consume me from the inside out
Lord let justice and praise
Become my embrace
To love you from the inside out

Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame
And the cry of my heart
Is to bring You praise
From the inside out
Lord my soul cries out
---
From the inside out by hillsongs united

-fighting for victory?
     or
-fighting from victory?

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9:13 AM


im not for religion..
its not a religion..
its a relationship..
its a walk..
a walk with god..

salvation is here and he lives in me..
salvation that died just to set me free..

-this world has been judged..
-receive your Saviour..

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8:12 AM


lol.. im living the night life.. seems as if my day begins when the sun sets.. and i go on.. until i get tired.. then sleep again and wake up "early".. haha.. but it was different yesterday.. i woke up early at 1am on wed.. then stayed up.. then went out.. reached home abt evening.. and couldnt help but sleep jus before dinner..

i was out with ivan yesterday.. i went to art friend and found a couple of useful stuff.. some face paint, a sharpie, a small canvas, fabric paint, an a-z stencil.. we were at far east.. and i jus kept browsing through the band tees.. but cant find what i want.. its jus the same few.. the 2 shops at far east offer things not found elsewher.. ther was aother shop therthat was selling band tees.. but other than mcr.. it seems like its a metal shop.. ivan was lookin for a cardigan.. 39 at the 2 shops at far east seemed too ex.. so we went to penin to buy his cardigan.. that was $20.. lols.. was tired that i slept on the bus to penin.. Zzz..

later..

-money is not the root of evil..
-the love of money is the root of evil..

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9:45 AM


its been quite some time..
graduation was jus saturday and i moved on to arrow.. its something i would choose to avoid if possible.. but clearly.. things like that dont happen.. mixed feelings of goin on to a new place.. my first service of arrow was alright.. service seemed kinda same as dare service.. praise and worship, preeching and all.. though its jus different.. the people.. the feeling.. the atmosphere.. the.. "know no one" feeling.. but everyone seemed pretty friendly.. for now..

well.. im invited to go to the caregroup gathering.. though its a jc gathering and im not in any way goin to a jc.. haha

a new season to life.. new things.. but i know.. everything will work together for good..

-love money or love people?
-use money or use people?

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5:27 AM


what profits a man who gains the whole world but loses his own soul?

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10:06 PM

a few videos that i took at encounter jesus3 camp that i came back from last week.. it was the first night.. the first service.. i was doin the lights.. the first one was suppose to be an opening.. my advice is to turn down the volume before playin cos its kinda loud.. U cant expect much from my digital camera that has such limited functions.. the quality is not at all good.. both the video and sound..

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8:32 PM


have been busy since i came back from ej3.. quite busy.. now i have fever.. but by grace i have life.. since i came back.. i have been busy - painting my room - watching Heros - and resting.. its been so long since i last blogged.. i guess im doin it only when i feel like it..

up till now.. ive finished painting 2 walls of my room.. thanks to ivan and wai leong.. who helped me with the first wall.. 2 grey walls.. not sure when ill continue with it though.. now my rooms in a mess..

ive cut a few new stencils.. one which im very proud of.. - zaraki kenpachi.. another is the skeleton of a hand.. and a flamable sign.. kenpachi turned out real nicely.. though there are some flaws i know of.. but it still turned out okay.. the skeleton hand one was good.. i din screw it up.. it looks so good.. but the flamable sign.. sorta screwed it up a bit.. figured cuting thin lines would be sucidal.. well the stencil is still alright and usable.. cant wait to use them..

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6:49 PM








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6:22 AM


ten years of education
forced into wasting our golden years
to do what we never loved

so much for education
so much for schools as prisons
caught up daily with useless teachers

the upbringing without freedom
no childhood for the children
to pursue their dreams and interests

what happened to freedom of speech
and voicing of views
when you lock up the kids in schools like jails

all these years of education
what have we learned?
what have we learned?
are we even taught to love?

wrote this myself in veiw of education of today..

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1:57 AM














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11:30 AM


jus came back from challet.. i slept for long long.. woke up at eleven after sleepin since twelve.. andmy arm still aching now.. wooo.. damn it was fun.. 4E challet was fun.. it was fun.. it was fun.. chasing after pussies outside the red house.. got stopped by cops.. crazy tiring cycling.. swimming and relaxing.. bbq food.. running around the challet playing escape.. and having fun where ever we were.. ill write it all if i had the time.. but later got dare.. and serving after the long break.. got to sleep to wake up in the morning at ten..

city without freedom.. a town of laws.. nothing to express.. crying out for a revolution..

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1:40 AM


FINALLY!!

im done with the new skin.. though it doesnt look that great.. somemore got the background image.. not nice.. i know.. but im gonna leave it for now.. cos challet is in a few hours.. damn.. its four alr.. spent so much time on this.. dono why the template thingy doesnt load.. then made me make the changes another time.. lucky i got save.. if not need to do a third and forth time..





4E07 challet in a few hours.. 8hours more to meet at tiong..

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3:50 AM


ITS OVER!!! IM DONE WITH MY EDUCATION!! IM DONE WITH MY OI! LEVELS!!
song bo.. get outa my life and i dont wanna see U again.. i hate U.. U ruined me.. ... education.. ive thrown my books away.. ive trashed my papers out..
WOOHOOO.. never felt better in my secondary school life..

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oops.

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5:26 PM


- not gonna blog until end of o levels -

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9:54 PM


today jus came back from queensway.. and bugis.. bought some couple of stuff.. a water bottle bag.. a mcr shirt.. my lip stud.. and i went to tapered my jeans.. for a 12and a half.. Zzz.. i gotta go study soon.. looks like my skin no prob liao.. good.. haha

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6:29 PM


jus put in new skin.. but got big problem.. im nt gonna care for nw la.. cnt be more than bothered..

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2:35 AM


woke up this morning..
something about today..
i realised its only morning..
theres still hours till end of day..

sian.. today got tuition again.. at 5.. i better stop usin the com and do my work.. from 5 till 7.. and probably even later.. it tends to drag a little.. up to half n hr.. then either stay at home or find the rest at bukit merah maC.. then at nine.. ... ... but i would expect a little delay here there.. ...

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1:50 PM




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1:22 PM


I see the king of glory
Coming down the clouds with fire
The whole earth shakes, the whole earth shakes
I see his love and mercy
Washing over all our sin
The people sing, the people sing
Hosanna, hosanna
Hosanna in the highest
I see a generation
Rising up to take the place
With selfless faith, with selfless faith
I see a new revival
Staring as we pray and seek
We're on our knees, we're on our knees
Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like you have loved me
Break my heart for what is yours
Everything I am for your kingdom's cause
As I walk from earth into eternity

Hosanna by hillsongs united

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6:44 PM


ive decided to blog less.. i hav to study study.. ive hardly touched any of my holiday homework.. hardly did anythin for my o levels.. at least i tell myself to spend less time on blogging.. ill leave it dead for the next few months.. only a couple of post every now and then.. thats probably how itll be.. need to balance balance how i spend my time..

today very very full of things.. i woke up late.. abt one plus.. mus sleep early and sleep enough these few days.. then tuition at 3.. tried to do do my homework as much as i could before 3.. then ended late.. like 5 thirty or so.. even though supposed to end at 5.. then eat and nw im doin this.. meetin wai leong at 7.. to go for takewondo at night.. if dn hav tuition i definitely go find the rest of them who are studin at bukit merah maC..

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5:37 PM

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