one door opens.. another one shuts..
someone tell me what is going on.

what i really wanted.. i tried hard but could not get..
what i did not want.. i was given..
what i settle for.. i got almost effortlessly..

and so i wonder..
"And to the angel of the church in Philadelphia write,
'These things says He who is holy, He who is true, He who has the key of David, He who opens and no one shuts, and shuts and no one opens": ...

"fine.. U dont want me.. ill take this city and burn it. ill prove all of U wrong and make U eat Ur words. im not suitable? see me suitable when U see my works all over the cities. see me rebel against this free country. why are U still so interested when Ur not accepting me anyway. why do U care. see me burn this school and all thats been built. Master, Master, where's the dreams that I've been after?" - somewhat how i felt on my way back.. haha.. i was angry.. disappointed.. because i din get what i wanted.. feelings have died down a though i still wonder.. why am i put here?

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8:34 PM




early in the morning
when the sun got in my eye
i felt a heaviness pouring
from a long and crazy night

from within there was a rising
something stuck in my head
a thought of vomiting
how did i get to this state

with eyes wide open
with my senses back together
i smelled something familiar
puke; i saw when i turned


-not a first hand experience but a spectator's words

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7:40 PM


we are not born to handle stress. spirits are contagious. every rose has its thorn. why did i end up here.

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7:30 PM


after school reopened, i so hope for holidays. though, i never wished of school when it was holidays. i wished there is no homework like in secondary school days. yea i know that i should not look back to the past and all, but still.. how i wish. a life without worries, sounds really beautiful. a carefree life with nothing to hurry and get busy with. but back to reality, i am living in a real world. i cant quit school and expect everything to be alright, or can i? yes i love what i am studying. no i dont love what i am studying. generally, its something i like. but specifically i dont exactly like every single thing. how i wish everything is done at school and theres no homework to do at home. ill just be busy at school and i have no worries to take home.

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mayb i could really quit school and be like this guy [link]

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8:12 AM


the whole day,
the tune kept playing,
again and again in my head.
... .. .. ... .. .. ... .. ..

fear of the dark

and now i say
just play it one more time
and again and again..

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how i wish i could linger
i your awesome presence forever.
cos even though i know
you go wherever i may go
its never the same when im left alone.

-the foolish things you do when youre left alone.

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7:50 AM


the future now seems so near
five minutes to a new year

but nothing seemed to change
things still moved on like night to day

scream out loud
the earth still moved like yesterday
i tried to shout
everything still seemed the same

i stood still thinking
is that all?
i looked on wondering
if there's more..

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what do i want?
what do i really want this year?
no idea.
i still feel this void inside.

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9:05 AM

As little children
We would dream of Christmas morn
Of all the gifts and toys
We knew we'd find
But we never realized
A baby born one blessed night
Gave us the greatest gift of our lives

We were the reason
That He gave His life
We were the reason
That He suffered and died
To a world that was lost
He gave all He could give
To show us the reason to live

As the years went by
We learned more about gifts
The giving of ourselves
And what that means
On a dark and cloudy day
A man hung crying in the rain
All because of love, all because of love

I've finally found the reason for living
It's in giving every part of my heart to Him
In all that I do every word that I say
I'll be giving my all just for Him, for Him

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for a time every year,
the world stops to remember.
christmas carols they hear,
to honor the birth of a Saviour. 

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9:15 PM




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no dog can serve two masters
no person can look in two directions
no man can love two women

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7:30 AM

Everybody likes to take a holiday
Everybody likes to take a rest
Spending time together with the family
Sharing lots of love and happiness.

Come on, ring those bells,
Light the Christmas tree,
Jesus is the king
Born for you and me.
Come on, ring those bells,
Every-body say,
Jesus, we remember
This your birthday.

Celebrations come because of something good.
Celebrations we love to recall
Mary had a baby boy in Bethleham
the greatest celebration of all.

Come on, ring those bells,
Light the Christmas tree,
Jesus is the King
Born for you and me.
Come on, ring those bells,
Every-body say,
Jesus, we remember
This your birthday.

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in quick passing days
i felt the my holidays
so easily slipped away

maybe im not used to a short holiday at the end of the year. the year seemed to wrapped up so quickly. 2 weeks? wheres my two months? my first week jus went by, seemed like i made my time worth though i havent done anything i have been wanting to. well now im starting on something; watching the fifth element for schoolwork's sake. how can i say i want my holiday when im already having it?

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6:08 AM


Feliz Navidad
Feliz Navidad
Feliz Navidad
Prospero Ano y Felicidad.

I wanna wish you a Merry Christmas
I wanna wish you a Merry Christmas
I wanna wish you a Merry Christmas
From the bottom of my heart.

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the beauty of observing..
taking time to conversing with..
and stepping into the world of..
a little child.

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6:31 AM


...Nor favour to men of skill;
But time and chance happen to them all.

For man also does not know his time:
Like fish taken in a cruel net.
Like birds caught in a snare,
So the sons of men snared in an evil time,
When it falls suddenly upon them.

but know this, that if the master of the house had known what hour the theif would come, he would have watched and not allowed his house to be broken into. Therefore you also be ready, for the Son of Man is coming at an hour you do not expect.

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9:44 AM


the first fall hurts the most.
the unseen wounds have never healed
i still hope from a fallen rose
i still think of the times with you

those bitter days
those lovely nights
we stayed awake
we lived a life

i told myself to let it go
but my heart just turned cold
i told myself to let it go
but the memories just couldnt go

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we judge others by their actions
we judge ourselves by intentions

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9:22 PM


i have yet to understand why someone would freely give, and give, and give. even after how i did not cherish what was given, again and agin.

-the ways different people express themselves
-the ways different people look at things
-the ways different people react
-the things that make you unique

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10:06 AM


enjoy the process; have the time of your life
stay true to yourself; why compromise for others?
give it your best shot; be satisfied with it.

it has interest me, a fact.
the fact the eagles soar alone.
pigeons and crows fly together. alot together.

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9:43 AM


the wicked flee when no one pursues,
but the righteous are bold as a lion.

afraid
of the unknown
i laid
my mind in fear
disobeyed
went on my own
influenced my peer
like theives
we walked with caution
i saw
the face of fathers
i fled
with thoughts of regret

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1:36 AM


the stress of it has killed the fun
your grace has left me with thanks giving

"you gave what the world couldn't offer me
say what they want say what they want
I are free".. indeed we are.

i do not want to oversleep i do not want to be a heavy sleeper i do not want to oversleep i do not want to be a heavy sleeper i do not want to oversleep i do not want to be a heavy sleeper i do not want to oversleep i do not want to be a heavy sleeper i do not want to oversleep i do not want to be a heavy sleeper i do not want to oversleep i do not want to be a heavy sleeper
i do not want to oversleep i do not want to be a heavy sleeper i do not want to oversleep i do not want to be a heavy sleeper i do not want to oversleep i do not want to be a heavy sleeper i do not want to oversleep i do not want to be a heavy sleeper i do not want to oversleep i do not want to be a heavy sleeper i do not want to oversleep i do not want to be a heavy sleeper
i do not want to oversleep i do not want to be a heavy sleeper i do not want to oversleep i do not want to be a heavy sleeper i want to wake up whenever i want i want to be a light sleeper i want to wake up whenever i want i want to be a light sleeper i want to wake up whenever i want i want to be a light sleeper i want to wake up whenever i want i want to be a light sleeper i want to wake up whenever i want i want to be a light sleeper i want to wake up whenever i want i want to be a light sleeper i want to wake up whenever i want i want to be a light sleeper
(why dont i jus ask for limitless life so i dont ever neeed to sleep. wooo) i want limitless life wohoo i want limitless life wohoo i want limitless life wohoo i want limitless life wohoo i want heaven on earth.

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3:44 PM


till when will you feed the hunger
of the rising generation
while they thirst for water
you are caught in a power struggle

are you tired of your corruption
or rather be in the mud a little longer
how good does it feel
to have the colours bow down before you
how did it ever get to here
is any of you fit for us to fear

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4:41 AM


Unless the LORD builds my house,
I labor in vain who build it;
Unless the LORD guards the city,
The watchman stays awake in vain.

It is vain for me to rise up early,
To sit up late,
To eat the bread of sorrows;
For so He gives His beloved sleep.

psalm127

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yes its late
and im still awake
on the bed
staying up in vain...

no i cant sleep
and its now three
my mind's not at ease
cos i cant sleep..

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10:31 AM


Angels Never Knew

Angels never knew the joy that is mine
For the blood has never washed their sins away
Thought they sing in Heaven there will come a time
When silently they listen to me sing Amazing Grace

It's a song holy angels cannot sing
Amazing grace
How sweet the sound
It's a song holy angels cannot sing
I once was lost
But now I'm found

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8:23 AM


its probably being posted everywhere..
~
There are many prodigal sons
On our city streets they run
Searching for shelter
There are homes broken down
People’s hopes have fallen to the ground
From failures

There are schools full of hatred
Even churches have forsaken
Love and mercy
May we see this generation
In its state of desperation
For Your glory

There are tears from the saints
For the lost and unsaved
We’re crying for them come back home
~

so this is just part of the song, Tears of the saints.

All we like sheep have gone astray; we have turned, every one to his own way; And the LORD has laid on him the iniquity of us all

...And if he should find it, he rejoices more over that sheep than over the ninety-nine that did not go astray. Even so it is not the will of your Father who is in heaven that one of these little ones should perish. -matt 18:10-14

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haha.. F one.. truly, -the race is not to the swift, Nor the battle to the strong, Nor bread to the wise, Nor riches to men of understanding, Nor favor to men of skill; But time and chance happen to them all. ... For man also does not know his time: Like fish taken in a cruel net, Like birds caught in a snare, So the sons of men are snared in an evil time, when it falls suddenly upon them.

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11:42 AM


came back just nowfrom caregruop. and after eating and watching, i went to proverbs 26 cos it was the 26th. and at the first verse; As snow in summer and rain in harvest, So honor is not fitting for a fool.
interesting to me..

this somehow seemed liked how i felt just now;
'Then Samuel took the horn of oil and anointed him in the midst of his brothers; and the Spirit of the LORD came upon David from that day forward. So Samuel arose and went to Ramah.' -Samuel 16:13



Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth

Would care to know my name 
Would care to feel my hurt 
Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star 
Would choose to light the way 
For my ever wandering heart 

Not because of who I am 
But because of what You've done 
Not because of what I've done 
But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading 
Here today and gone tomorrow 
A wave tossed in the ocean 
Vapor in the wind 
Still You hear me when I'm calling 
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling 
And You've told me who I am 
I am Yours, I am Yours 

Who am I, that the eyes that see my sin 
Would look on me with love and watch me rise again 
Who am I, that the voice that calmed the sea 
Would call out through the rain 
And calm the storm in me 

Not because of who I am 
But because of what You've done 
Not because of what I've done 
But because of who You are 

I am a flower quickly fading 
Here today and gone tomorrow 
A wave tossed in the ocean 
Vapor in the wind 
Still You hear me when I'm calling 
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling 
And You've told me who I am 
I am Yours 

Not because of who I am 
But because of what You've done 
Not because of what I've done 
But because of who You are 

I am a flower quickly fading 
Here today and gone tomorrow 
A wave tossed in the ocean 
Vapor in the wind 
Still You hear me when I'm calling 
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling 
And You've told me who I am 
I am Yours 

I am Yours 
Whom shall I fear 
Whom shall I fear 

I am Yours                                       by casting crowns

 but you have heard my innermost prayers. 

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11:43 AM


a beautiful song that was played just now.

The love of God is greater far
Than tongue or pen can ever tell
It goes beyond the highest star
And reaches to the lowest hell
The guilty pair, bowed down with care
God gave His Son to win
His erring child He reconciled
And pardoned from his sin

Could we with ink the ocean fill
And were the skies of parchment made
Were every stalk on earth a quill
And every man a scribe by trade

To write the love of God above

Would drain the oceans dry
Nor could the scroll contain the whole
Though stretched from sky to sky

Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
O love of God, how rich and pure!
How measureless and strong!
It shall forevermore endure
The saints' and angels' song

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deeper than the deepest oceans,
wider than the widest skies.
time and space can never measure,
nor can any man know why,
this love of god that was freely given.

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12:04 AM


kool.. i found my pastor in youtube when i was browsing recently..

http://www.youtube.com/user/JosephPrinceMedia

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5:17 PM


last day of school. mixed feelings. would probably stop blogging here. mayb ill close the blog.. mayb ill hide it somewhere.. ill see.. mayb ill be too lazy to do anything.

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5:27 PM


how we tend to judge people by their actions,
and ourselves by our intentions..

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4:37 AM


just wanted to write something so true i heard in arrow service just now..
-you can give without loving,
but you can't love without giving.

that was what God did by giving up his son in love for me.

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11:58 PM


im sure its true..
you will not want to wait.. to do something you really like..

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5:40 AM


ill probably not be blogging in a very long time.. as i have not been already.. maybe only after i have learned to manage my time more wisely.. ill jus drop by if i ever have anythin i so wish to blog about..

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3:00 AM


yesterday..
just came back from school,
before that..
just came back from cruise,
before that..
just came back from arrow camp.

alright.. i just summarised what happened since last tuesday. a satisfying holiday. but now got homework.
arrow camp was great.. my first arrow camp.. was at batam.. slow paced but fun.. compared to dare camps.. this camp was better.. went on wednesday.. came back on saturday..
And on sunday.. went to cruise.. pretty kool.. first time on one.. took many photos.. but most of them not nice.. still learning how to make the best of my camera.. the cruise docked at peneng and phuket to tour around.. bought some clothes at the call at peneng.. go there just eat and eat.. though i din seemed to get any bigger.. got breakfast lunch dinner supper.. and its all buffet.. it wasnt as big as i imagined.. but not that small either.. four days of relaxing.. ya..
straight after i came back home from cruise.. had to go to school.. to do project.. yes ah.. finished visual audio storytelling assignment alr.. in that few hours.. it wasnt rushed but it turned out great.. a great sense of satisfaction after that last night.. now i should continue the rest of my homework.. not even clear what i have to do.. Zzz



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2:59 PM


stressed out the whole day.. yea.. been so busy for the past 24hrs.. not until i came home. not a very fantastic day, but im glad its all behind me...

and now.. BEHOLD.. For the HOLY DAYS are here.. yes.. the holidays.. song bo.. woo hoo.. or smth like that. though its only 2 weeks, im gonna enjoy it to my fullest.. im really gonna care less about school these 2 weeks though there are homework to do and goin back to school to go back to school. gonna spend my time doing the things i could not find the time to do during the school term. ince the tart of chool when i entered poly, it wasnt exactly mooth ailing a i thought poly life would be. i should jus enjoy wherever i am, wherever god has placed me.


its late alr.. very late.. i got to go to bed.. NOT.. ima gonna ton at brinda's wireless with the same few guys..

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11:08 PM


learning is a never ending journey
growing is a phenomenon beyond stature

' the more i know, the more i know i don't know. '

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1:03 AM


loneliness, is an emotional state.
being alone, is a physical state.

yet its possible to feel lonely in the mist of a crowd. and its possible not to feel lonely even when left alone. it all starts off from the mind. are you alone? or are you lonely?

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11:52 PM


jus came back from the soccer match singapore vs uzbekistan.. the first time i heard this country. it was fun as usual watching the match, even though singapore lost badly. listening to those around me cheering and shouting was very entertaining.

lotsa work to do.. wish i could rest.. the bed is so tempting. i hope ill get through till the morning light.

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11:37 PM


a short post.. after a long week. the feeling was long. theres lots of things to do. especially when its going to be the last week before the break.. got assignments to hand in. higher percentage ones. its not really fun to be busy. hopefully for the coming week ill post one entry a day. hopefully.

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4:46 PM


woo hoo.. jus came back from the zone koncert. song bo.. woo hoo.. song bo.. power ah.. cant wait for them to come back again..jus cant describe the feeling.. the atmosphere.. heaven on earth.. kinda..

the lights went off. it was pitch dark. the crowd was roaring. they got restless. light sticks were flying all over. the drums played a beat. the crowd was cheering louder. the band started playing. "are you ready?". everyone went wild. the floodlights were on. the music was close to deafening. it was crazy.. like a dream of some sort. somewhat fantasy.. and i told god, i wish you were here. every single one of you out there.

It is not a human right
To stare not fight
While broken nations dream
Open up our eyes, so blind
That we might find
The Mercy for the need

Singin Hey Now
Fill our hearts with your compassion
Hey Now
As we hold to our confession
Yeah

It is not too far a cry
To much to try
To help the least of these
Politics will not decide
If we should rise
And be your hands and feet

Singing Hey Now
Fill our hearts with your compassion
Hey Now
As we hold to our confession

Woah-oh-oh,
God be the solution
Woah-oh-oh
We will be Your hands and be Your feet.
Yeah, yeah

Higher than a circumstance
Your promise stands
Your love for all to see
Higher than protest line and dollar signs
Your love is all we need

Only you can mend the broken heart
And cause the blind to see
Erase complete the sinners past
And set the captives free
Only you can take the widows cry
And cause her heart to sing
Be a father to the fatherless
Our savior and our king
We will be your hands, we will be your feet
We will run this race
On the darkest place, we will be your light
We will be your light

We will be your hands , we will be your feet
We will run this race for the least of these
In the darkest place, we will be your light
We will be your light

We will run we will run
We will run with the solution

We will be your hands we will be your feet
We will run this race for the least of these
In the darkest place we will be your light
We will be your light

i saw the world lost in darkness. without hope and life. i saw their need.
i saw.. my time, my generation,my purpose.

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1:27 AM


alright after being awake for afew hours, ive finally ready to start my homework all. most likely not goin to sleep, and jus go straight to school later. cos i woke up at 5 plus jus nw.. tuesday, one long day. i would probably sleep in the late afternoon lectures. and now, i got quite a few things to chiong.. some i dont know how to do. at least ive finally got into the mood to start.. lol.. thank god for holy days(holidays).

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7:46 PM

Casting Crowns - Who Am I

Who am I?
That the Lord of all the earth,
Would care to know my name,
Would care to feel my hurt.
Who am I?
That the bright and morning star,
Would choose to light the way,
For my ever wondering heart.

Not because of who I am.
But because of what you've done.
Not because of what I've done.
But because of who you are.

I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow.
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord you catch me when I'm falling,
And you told me who I am.
I am yours.
I am yours.

Who am I?
That the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
And watch me rise again
Who am I?
That the voice that calm the sea,
Would call out through the rain,
And calm the storm in me.

Not because of who I am.
But because what of youve done.
Not because of what I've done.
But because of who you are.

I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow.
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord you catch me when I'm falling,
And you told me who I am.
I am yours.

Not because of who I am.
But because of what you've done.
Not because of what I've done.
But because of who you are.

I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow.
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord you catch me when I'm falling,
You told me who I am.
I am yours.
I am yours.

Whom shall I fear?
Whom shall I fear?
'Cuz I am yours.
I am yours.

somehow, i stumbled upon this song just now. and it was one heaven of a song. peaceful, and full of meaning. for the king of kings would care about me, a little one who cares not but myself. on this little earth comepared to the infinite universe that is expanding as i am typing right now. yet he never leaves me even when i fail or do wrong, forever here to guide me every step of the way.


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10:48 PM


it was one whole day at school though it actually ended at 12. spend a coupole of hours drawing the perspective of the block. not a fruitful drawing that cos i din had any feel to draw. then went to have dinner with family.. the jap food was alot alot.. eat until very full.. it was then that i was about to reach home that got call to go play soccer..
and it was when i went to play soccer.. that i played bare footed until there was a hole in my foot.. not really but thats what it feels and looks like.. probably a blister, quite a big one. on the bll of my foot..
i peeled off the thick skin, showing the delicate red flesh that was neither skin nor did it bleed. it was thin and sensitive everytime it touches anythin. it made walking difficult as i needed to limp to avoid it touching anything as much as possible. it wasnt unbearably painful, but it jus felt it felt like it was about to break. i wanted to put up a picture of it, but it seemed too gore-ry. literally a big red circle in my foot.
now i just want to sleep.. too tired to do any homework though i have quite a few to hand in on tuesday.

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11:46 PM


great.. i lied on my bed and the next thing i knew i slept through and woke up at 3thirty.. my intention was to do my design fund to hand in later.. but since i still have time i better do it nw.. i guess resting first was better.. at least i did not wake up too late.. if not no time to do..

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4:17 AM


today is the first time i..
pon school.. not lesson or lecture, cos i pon lecture a couple of times alr, but one day of school. one day of school of one lecture.. Zzz
i know.. i should have done it much earlier.. or.. i should never have done it.. but today is jus woke up late.. one hour later than i should.. fifteen mins to start of lecture and i was still in bed. even i i chiong, the earliest i would reach is one hour late. no point.. late tap card also considered absent. i rather get more sleep.. sleep sleep.. something i hardly got the past week. monday + tuesday total sleep = 8 hours. Zzz..

stop to sit down..
stop and lie down..
look at the clouds.

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3:30 PM


no homework. Enjoy life. yes indeed. ill never enjoy life if i hate my homework. so its not true that i dont have any homework at hand. in fact, i have quite a few.

-thumbnails to show for colour theory on monday
-report to hand in,
-research on SHIRTS to show for concept development on tuesday
-drawing of corridor to show on thursday
-pictogram assignment to hand in on friday

i have realised that consistency is important, though im not that consistent after all. and up till now, i still sometimes live a nortunal lifestyle even on school days.

And currently theres this -research on SHIRTS that i have to do, which i have no idea what i have to do even though i have the powerpoint slides the lecturer presented with. here is the almost exact copy of what was on the slides.

Assignment Specifications

Jiunn’s Hawaiian Shirt (Brand) is launching a print advertisement w/ the slogan:

“Earth’s Most Creative Shirt!”

You are responsible to generate ideas of the main image.


Things to do before next class:

*Collect at least 2 pages of found images of SHIRTS. One is the research of shirts you think are creative, while the other are found images that associate with / inspired by SHIRT.

*Also, for at least 1 page, use the word SHIRT as source to start generate ideas for “Earth’s Most Creative Shirt!”

*Use your found images as inspiration & Jiunn’s Mind Mapping technique to record your idea generating processes.

well the thing is, as cool as this assignment may sound, i dont understand what the to do.. --? neither do my friends. too konfusing..

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11:56 PM


courage is not just boldness.
but boldness to face your giants.
for boldness to face the lesser comes to everyone.

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12:51 AM


its been one heaven of a week.. well not exactly.. i got c for 2 exercises.. urghH.. unfair luh.. haiZ.. it was just down to whether there was skill or not.. not how much effort put into the work.. but what can i do.. giving up is justoo stupid.. i can only work harder in my next assignments.. its a damn bloody unfair world.. but my God is also unfair. unfairly good.

really seems like i wont be playing soccer in nyp..ever since ive come into this school ive never played soccer, but started playing basketball almost every other few days.. cos my school got 2 basketball courts while only got one soccer court that is very big and used for more than jus soccer.. so i scored my first basketball goal when i came here.. the most recent i played was yesterday.. with my class.. it was fun.. i no longer see it as a sport im afraid of.. or im afraid of it lesser now.. the first time i played i was so scared the ball i avoided it.. i jus handicapped my team in the 3v3.. haha.. in the second time i played i intercepted my first ball..blah blah blah and it goes on.. of course im not that good at all.. and im still a pus! to the ball sometimes..

how sweet the sound of victory,
even in captivity.

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6:29 AM


so yesterday everyone in our class dressed up and presented, there was a weird ?vampire?, alot of jap freaks, and korean, hip hop, a bouncer, slash the guitarist, a black sailor moon, a nerd geek, a sasuke, an aizen, a gara, a clown, a panda, a ghost. should i put up the photos??? though i did not take any. my stupid camera busted me when i needed it most by no more batree. Zzz only got those that from other ppl take one..

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2:45 AM


been so busy to have extra time to blog.. or mayb i was jus too lazy.. heavy workload from school.. hand in assignments and exercise at hand, then get new assignments and exercises. so its like not a day without homework to do. unless of course i finish it all quickly, which seems impossible because i have 5 modules (i think) and theres always work at hand for every one of them. finish one, got another one, and another one. so the best is always enjoy whatever i am doing. though i jus finished my colour theory assignment which is so badly done. planning to stay up till time to go to school. chiong the rest of my work. creating a new blog soon, for another purpose, but not enough time these days, so maybe in another month.

what would you do if a million dropped down one day on you?
would it slip off your hands as quickly as it came?
or will it grow to greater wealth?

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2:53 AM


the time is now,
to do what is really in your heart.
the time is now,
to enjoy the moment.
for time can pass before you know it,
time can take forever,
but none can ever turn back time,
only to regret in their heart.

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9:59 PM


If it doesnt kill me,
it will build me.

learning to use ink isnt very smooth sailing, especially when the teacher has such high expectations. with words like" my five year old kid can do also", "this one cannot, very messy. you are not picasso". and even saying that my pear looks like and apple.. "this is an apple, this is also an apple. make up your mind whether U want to do apple or pear. haha, i can only laught about it. and learn from my mistakes. crude but true remarks.
accepting my wrong was the first step to getting it right.

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9:46 PM


its been about a week since that last post on the first day to school..
and it has been one ... of a week. ive seen the good, the bad the ugly. things are not easy, but with God all things all possible. learning how to manage my time is just too necessary.

life is unfair. life is difficult. what is your source of assurance when times are bad?

[http://www.thezone.org.sg] -the concert that will change your life.

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12:37 AM


it is with a vision that people achieve their dreams,
it is also with a vision that people achieve nothing.
but it is without a vision that people perish.

secondary school life was just playing and playing. ending up in the last class was no better to motivate me. no doubt it was fun, the whole class had fun doing badly. most of us had visions, some of us did not care. but i believe that many of us had a common vision in school; which was to have fun. and no doubt we got what we wanted, we didnt really have to work hard for it.
but i shall ask myself, what do i really want in poly life. what do i want to get out of it?

If i know how to get there,
it is a goal.
If i don't know how to get there,
it is a dream.


---
song bo , today first few lessons canceled. left lecture that last one 2 hours only. and i should be going soon, especially when it takes one hour to get to school.

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9:44 AM


when the giants of life comes,
will they break you?
or will you break through?

the giants of life comes,
they come to all,
will you defeat it?
or will you fall?

life is unfair.
the giants are there,
will you face it?
will you fear it?
will you peservere?
will you surrender?

the trials of life,
the troubles of life,
they come they go,
we run we chiong,

to reign,
or to be reigned over?
by the life you think is worthless.

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3:56 AM


we crave what we cant attain, and we dont cherish what we have.
quite true, though not entirely

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7:12 AM


your today is the result of your past actions,
your future will be the result of your decisions today.
and
your future is anytime after now.
and now is the time a change can start.
by changing the attitude towards each day,
changing the value of each day,
changing the quality of each day,
because each single day is powerful.

whether good or bad,
don't let the past hold you back ,
but let the future push you forward.

you cannot escape the responsibilities of tomorrow
by avoiding it today. -Abraham Lincoln


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1:44 AM


more often than not,
how we see ourselves, is how we see others see us..
And we live our lives according to how we see ourselves..
a simple example would be you seeing yourself as a loser,
affecting you to live the life of a loser.
yet seeing yourself victorious,
would manifest a victorious life.

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3:25 AM


everyone thinks of changing the world, but no one thinks of changing themselves. -Leo Tolstoy

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1:13 AM


its not about how great the problem is..
its about how great the solution is.

thinking of migrating my blog to multiply..
well.. maybe in another year or so..

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5:15 AM


no one is perfect,
even someone good has faults,
its the degree of inperfection.
but in the end,
no one is entirely good; or perfect.

why not appreciate others for their good,
instead to fault them.

positive actions would produce positive results,
negative actions would in its way produce negative results.

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2:38 PM




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11:14 AM


What would you do, if you knew that you would never be sick again?
What would you do, if you knew that you would never grow tired?
What would you do, if you knew that nothing can hurt you in any way?
What would you do, if you knew that death can no longer hold you down?

more often than not, the fear of these things has held us down.

so what would you do? if you knew.

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10:23 AM


For all things money can buy,
theres much more money cant.

money can buy you the most expensive food,
but not the ability to taste and enjoy it.
money can buy you the most expensive bed,
but not quality sleep.
money can buy you a person,
but without the person's love.
money can buy a big house,
but its an empty home.
money can buy U anything you can see in this world,
but not what is beyond the tangible realm.

the fact is,
even with great wealth,
it would never satisfy,
because there is no limit.

the fact is,
people seek money,
in hope to get what they think money can get them,
but they never found what they were looking for.

have you found what you were looking for? hahaha...

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12:38 PM


tonight i shall blog about something not concerning myself..

Food For Enjoyment
so whats the point of eating? when the food is not enjoyed.
whats the point of overeating? when you hurt from the bloatedness. and suffer from more than you should.
whats the point of eating what you dont like? just because you dont wanna waste it. saving that little bit by thinking of the "starving children in Africa" wont help them at all. haha.. so save yourself instead. (lol. but no offence meant to Africa)
whats the point of rushing through the food? just to be the first to finish. only because we are in a rat race, a world competing to be the first.
haha.. just because food is more than just something to fill the stomach, and that i have a blog to write what i want..

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5:35 AM


so much for the great ambition of making a new blogskin.. all ive been doing these days was playing GTA san andreas on my com.. and nothing much else..

im still waiting for my packaGE!! im a little impatient but i know its on its way.. zzz.. woo hoo.. im going to nyp.. not really sure where it is.. where im going, its gonna be great.. too bad for sp for not accepting me.. its jus their loss.. And where im going, it shall be good.. yeA:)

-if there is a reason to love, then there may be a reason not to love..
-for human love would surely disappoint..

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9:59 AM


its been a while since.. ive not been accomplishing much these past few.. benn playing alot of.. especially when i just got a gta san andrews on my pc..

now that i think about it, i would be just as happy if i dn get to DID.. the digital media design is not bad also.. only thing is that nyp is a bit far..

current working on a new blogskin.. just trying to figure out the coding and all.. the design is more or less there, and neither am i goin to spend too much effort on it cos i dn really care about how it looks, dont need to be awesomely stunning beautiful.. LOl..

and to U out there behind the screen who is looking at this right now.. i dont like it.. so just dont tell me.. yea i know it sounds like a total contradiction but its true..

-man cannot live by bread alone.

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6:03 PM




most recently done, less than an hour ago.. white fabric paint on my newly bought 5dollars giodano shirt..

-a merry heart does good like medicine :)

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3:56 AM



recently completed a few days ago.. hitsugaya done on a shirt for daryl.. but not say very well done la.. in terms of colour and the drawing.. but overall ok..

... the good i want to do, i do not.
the evil i do not want to do, i do.
for in my flesh dwells no good thing.

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10:41 PM






my recent shirt done for yong bin.. the colours are not right.. especially concerning the hair.. mainly because i do not watch naruto and dont know how these characters should turn out.. not well done in my opinion.. well it could have been better.. but worth a shot in unfamiliar grounds..

things have been a little disappointing, but i am not discouraged..

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4:00 AM







i should hav posted this long ago.. but better later than never.. took these during first day of chinese new year.. these are jus the best few from what many i took.. while any other typical person would take pictures of themselves, of families of long lost cousins, i took pictures of these little ones that caught my eye.. the first little kid is.. i dono who.. the other 2 are my cousins.. who look really alike.. and talk rather alike also.. the childlike innocence they have that i would want for myself.. im still a child, haha.. a child of the most high god..

-The world is full of personalities, but what about character?

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2:00 AM


alright finally some peace and quiet.. i did a zaraki kenpachi on my plain white tee yesterday night.. it turned out rather alright.. but not very defined throughout the whole picture.. here it is..
and i jus found out my name is on yong bin's blog.. ahhh.. he writes the weirdest and funniest things.. and my name is on his blog..

when you fight for something, you have to defend..

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5:54 PM


just came back from a long day.. and rather tiring one.. woke up early to church at indoor stadium.. pastor mark preach very good.. after service i went with caregroup go kentucky fried chicken to eat lunch.. after discuss long long.. we finally went to east coast.. woo hoo.. kool rite.. we wet cycling.. all dressed up in my marshal and skinnies and high cutt, ready to cycle.. LOL.. i rented the small bike.. unlike everyone else got mountain bike.. so i learnt one thing.. the small small bike can ride, but only when i want to cycle doubly hard.. it was only a short distance.. but the bike made things not so easy.. and cycling in a not so sporty attire.. haha.. but that doesnt sop the fun of it all.. and when all that was not enough.. i went to watch movie with my family.. the jay choo basketball show.. a so~so only show.. not really that great..

now im tired wan to go sleep.. its very late alr..

-but god does not glory in creation, but in redemption..


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11:31 PM



i just.. watched bleach movie; memories of nobody, which was kinda nice.. something to watch when ive alr seen the manga to the very recent chapter.. better drawing than the every week anime.. and i still like zaraki kenpachi..

i also jus came back from west coast.. went to darryl house cos he invited the caregroup.. we were there for a while.. then left the few of us; charris, wei xuan, darryl and the beloved of the lord. we went to west coast to play.. ahaha.. really fun.. climb up the high high red paramad.. took 4 pictures.. then play around the others fun fun stuff ther.. then while playing i found an eagle.. and we played with the eagle.. then i found a string and tied it to the eagle so it wont fly away.. it was fun.. and the eagle.. i brought it wherever i went and then brought it home..



one of the pictures that i took jus nw.. of the kite that i found on the floor.. i like this one because of how i shows the eagle.. a creature created to soar above its storms and ride the winds.. made for greatness..

-for the creations of god far surpasses the creations of man..


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11:41 PM


Quick bloging before i go sleep soon.. cos ive been sleeping quite early these few days.. since saturday.. i slept before twelve.. a bit early for someone who normally sleeps during the day.. sunday monday and tuesday slept around ten.. and after this im goin to bed..

ive been out the whole day.. went to school play batminton.. at first wan go swimming but cannot.. then we went to jurong the swimming place to go swim swim.. went to eat and walk around.. jus bath after reachin home.. quite a tiring..

thats it.. im goin to bed alr.. too lazy.. jud wanna get some rest..

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9:42 PM


sian.. in the end nvr meet yong bin all yesterday.. suddenly called off.. Zzz..

and the peter pan.. bluff me one.. i thought is animation.. come out is the real life acting one.. so i nvr watch.. Zzz.. fridays.. busy fridays.. and saturdays.. and sundays..

-it is impossible to look at creation and say that there is no creator..

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5:19 AM


its now.. close to nine.. ive stayed up all night.. cos i woke up at eight last night.. jus a bit more.. and ill meet yong bin all at 12 cos his birthday..

the past many hours.. i watched 3 movies.. played psp.. ate.. to pass the time.. its now ten.. i was drawing for fun.. nw gonna bath.. and i got a movie i wanna watch.. Peter Pan.. LOL..

-cold hearted, and hot headed
or warm hearted, and a cool mind..
... smth like that..

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8:48 AM






in relation to my pervious entry, here are the pictures.. well.. ya.. these photos are badly taken..

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4:18 AM


its been a rather.. "lazy days and lazy nights" for me these few days.. though there were a couple of diy stuff that i did recently..

i studdded my black shoes.. and added a chain to it.. but only on one side..

i re-bleached my jeans.. now it has a smoother gradient.. the bottom now very bleached.. the on top still more or less the same.. the knee area a bit mor.. whatever it is.. its better than earlier on.. and next to lace back the holes..

then i did up my black skinnies.. sewed a zipper.. which had nice stitchings to it.. put up some studds.. that didnt turned out very well.. hooked on a chain on the side.. overall seemed alright.. except for the studds that dont stay on well..

ltr then i upload picture.. Zzz

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2:17 AM


You hold the future in Your hands
You know my dreams and You have a plan
And as You light my way, I'll follow You

My eyes on all of the above
My soul secure in all You've done
My minds made up
And You are the only one for me

Jesus, Savior, in my life you are everything
My future decided, I will praise Your name
And I know that I am, I am Yours
Yeah, I know that that I am, I am Yours

With all the earth in Your command
You are the rock on which I stand
And as I live each day, I'll follow You

Aren't afraid, aren't ashamed Lord we know who we are
We are your people and we won't be silent
Unified hear us cry at the top of our lungs
You our God and we will not be shaken

my future decided.. every part of it so true.. i especially like the " Aren't afraid, aren't ashamed Lord we know who we are"... onwards.. i would always like to shout it out loud when its being played live.. this song jus makes me wanna dance.. for i am not ashamed of the gospel.. speaking of that line.. reminds me of another song..

when You found me
my whole world changed
i’m redeemed by Your life
let the earth sing
You are freedom
turn my darkness to light

You welcome me in
with open arms
into unending light

i’m not ashamed of the gospel Lord
Your power Your love
You saved my soul
now i’m alive in You
i live in the risen Son

i'm not ashamed.. now i found an album i dont have.. another song that jus makes me dance in the presence of god.. for i am free to be who i am because of the cross.. ill add it in later.. soon..


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6:14 AM


today collect oh? levels results.. my results were.. not that bad.. but not say very good either.. ok okay la.. but it doesnt matter much anyway.. ill still get in to the course i want.. not by my efforts.. but by god's grace..

And whoever said that the academic results of someone would determine his future.. not at all.. we hav so much to live for.. so much more to live on.. and i will not be tied down by a powerless cert.. im only.. i think seventeen.. and ive not even lived a quart of my life.. so much to live for.. so much waiting for me.. im not sayin that i hav forever.. but theres always a second chance in life.. its jus a matter of giving yourself that chance..

-why trade your precious diamonds for sweets..
just because of the lack of knowledge of what you have..

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5:02 AM


seems like a long time since ive posted.. been a little busy.. surfing the virtual diy community.. from sites like threadbanger, craftzine, makezine, instructables..

and i jus tapered my school pants recently.. with help from my mom.. fitted jus nicely.. except for it having a little defects here and there.. but turned out quite right.. considering it was my first time tapering pants..

went cycling yesterday with phelan.. was kind of boring cos we jus cycled to skate park.. following his idea of going ther to graffiti.. it was so dark.. i couldnt take any nice pictures of it.. so hoping to go ther again when the sun is shinning so that i can get a picture of what i did.. quite bored la.. hoping to be able to cycle to east coast again some time soon.. while phelan is too tired that hes sleeping now.. :0 zzZ

and finally.. the results are coming out.. yeS ah.. and im goin to sp.. school of design.. at least that is the desire of my heart.. and im not settling for second best..

-meekness; strength under control

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4:48 AM


jus changed my phone yesterday.. pretty kool and classy.. lols.. i stayed up yesterday.. and slept abt 12 after gettin the phone.. then i woke up jus nw at 9pm..

its now eighthirty am.. im gonna bath soon and then sleep mayb at 10 eleven..

-a man is great when he lives a life beyond himself..

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3:40 AM


jus finished it..
isnt is great?
i dont care what you say anyway..
though it looks unfinished..
simple and straight forward..
spent more on the pictures..
thanks to the movie the passion..
i used the pics from there..
and put them together..

the reason that i live..

-great wealth can never buy great health..

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6:13 AM


im working on a new blogskin..
mayb done in another night..
while ill be lazzing around for now..

-when good men stay silent, evil reigns..

Mighty To Save lyrics

Everyone needs compassion
Love that’s never failing
Let mercy fall on me
Everyone needs forgiveness
The kindness of a Saviour
The hope of nations


Saviour
He can move the mountains
My God is mighty to save
He is mighty to save
Forever
Author of salvation
He rose and conquered the grave
Jesus conquered the grave


So take me as You find me
All my fears and failures
Fill my life again
I give my life to follow
Everything I believe in
Now I surrender


Shine Your light and let the whole world see
We’re singing
For the glory of the risen King

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8:58 PM


[Dream as if you'll live forever; live as if you'll die tomorrow. - james dean, well wad do you know.. james dean died in a car crash.. haha.. exactly as he said.. rebel without a pause indeed.. ]

im wondering wads the big deal about another day.. so what if this day has a new year to it?.. its jus one digit different to it.. why ya need a 2007 change to a 2008 to call for such a big bang celebration? nothin grand abt it.. haha.. mayb im jus crazy too..

a new year.. to me it means a new start to things.. every year has its season.. new beginnings.. new giants.. new victories.. more importantly.. this year is a year of manifested blessings for me and my house.. yea.. no doubt about it..

yea man.. in another.. erm.. err.. about 9hrs ltr.. ill be gettin my new table.. the new addition to my room.. swt.. so ima go turn in early.. (if turn in means sleep)

- to give to others.. without expecting anything in return..
-to give to others.. because you really mean for them to have it..
-to give to others.. the best you can give to them..
-to give to others.. because you first have much..


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1:11 AM


... to stand up and defend for yourself?
or... to not defend yourself?
or ... to stand up and defend, not for yourself but for the greater cause of others..



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3:48 PM


ahhh..
woke up with my body all aching..
jus cos i was at sentosa yesterday..
played so much at the beach..
played rugby, it was a crazy scene..
played soccer with some wild kids..
built castles that were sandy..
swan to the other side of sea..

so it was a long day at sentosa.. we did all of that.. rugby was so crazy, soccer with some ang moh kids.. playin with the sand and making balls.. it was all damn fun.. so now.. my body is aching..

-just because others have given up on you..
-doesnt mean its time to give up on yourself..

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11:53 AM


i dont remember if ive ever put the lyrics to solution..
but im gonna do it anyway..

It is not a human right
To stare not fight
While broken nations dream
Open up our eyes, so blind
That we might find
The Mercy for the need

Singin Hey Now
Fill our hearts with your compassion
Hey Now
As we hold to our confession
Yeah

It is not too far a cry
To much to try
To help the least of these
Politics will not decide
If we should rise
And be your hands and feet

Singing Hey Now
Fill our hearts with your compassion
Hey Now
As we hold to our confession

Woah-oh-oh,
God be the solution
Woah-oh-oh
We will be Your hands and be Your feet.
Yeah, yeah

Higher than a circumstance
Your promise stands
Your love for all to see
Higher than protest line and dollar signs
Your love is all we need

Only you can mend the broken heart
And cause the blind to see
Erase complete the sinners past
And set the captives free
Only you can take the widows cry
And cause her heart to sing
Be a father to the fatherless
Our savior and our king
We will be your hands, we will be your feet
We will run this race
On the darkest place, we will be your light
We will be your light

We will be your hands , we will be your feet
We will run this race for the least of these
In the darkest place, we will be your light
We will be your light (we’ll say/sing?)

We will run we will run
We will (run with the solution?) (2x)

We will be your hands we will be your feet
We will run this race for the least of these
In the darkest place we will be your light
We will be your light

-solution by hillsongs united

And the song should be playing by now..
in accoustic version.

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11:31 PM


strange isnt it?
we depreciate what we used..
we appreciate what we lose..

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4:51 PM


I was sure by now,God,
that You would have reached down
and wiped our tears away,
stepped in and saved the day.
But once again, I say amen
and it's still raining
as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain,
"I'm with you"
and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
the God who gives and takes away.

And I'll praise you in this storm
and I will lift my hands
for You are who You are
no matter where I am
and every tear I've cried
You hold in your hand
You never left my side
and though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm

I remember when I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry to You
and raised me up again
my strength is almost gone how can I carry on
if I can't find You
and as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
the God who gives and takes away


I lift my eyes onto the hills
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth
I lift my eyes onto the hills
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth

beautiful song by casting crowns, praise you in the storm.

i will praise you all my days..
in the good times..
and even the bad..

for U are faithful..
even when i am not..

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3:16 AM


he that walks with wise men shall be wise,
a companion of fools shall be destroyed.

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11:53 AM


christ is the reason for christmas. dont cross out the meaning in christmas..
jesus is the reason for the season..
though this isnt the real time that was his birth..

the one who flung the stars in their place..
the one who spoke the earth into movement..
you stepped into our world of darkness..
you came down to our level..
to save us helpless and weak..
the king of angels..
born into no royalty..
to fulfill the father's will..
to die on the cross..
friends, acquaintances and lover..
brought far from him..
soldiers gambled for his clothes..
the father turned his back on him..
and he cried out..
it is finished..
and forever it will be..

He came born to this earth..
to die for all of mankind..

this season..
we celebrate your birth..

happy birthday jesus

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11:22 PM

A thousand times I've failed
Still Your mercy remains And should I stumble again
I'm caught in Your grace
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame

Your will above all else
My purpose remains
The art of losing myself
In bringing You praise
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame

In my heart and my soul
Lord I give You control
Consume me from the inside out
Lord let justice and praise
Become my embrace
To love you from the inside out

Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame
And the cry of my heart
Is to bring You praise
From the inside out
Lord my soul cries out
---
From the inside out by hillsongs united

-fighting for victory?
     or
-fighting from victory?

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9:13 AM


im not for religion..
its not a religion..
its a relationship..
its a walk..
a walk with god..

salvation is here and he lives in me..
salvation that died just to set me free..

-this world has been judged..
-receive your Saviour..

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8:12 AM


lol.. im living the night life.. seems as if my day begins when the sun sets.. and i go on.. until i get tired.. then sleep again and wake up "early".. haha.. but it was different yesterday.. i woke up early at 1am on wed.. then stayed up.. then went out.. reached home abt evening.. and couldnt help but sleep jus before dinner..

i was out with ivan yesterday.. i went to art friend and found a couple of useful stuff.. some face paint, a sharpie, a small canvas, fabric paint, an a-z stencil.. we were at far east.. and i jus kept browsing through the band tees.. but cant find what i want.. its jus the same few.. the 2 shops at far east offer things not found elsewher.. ther was aother shop therthat was selling band tees.. but other than mcr.. it seems like its a metal shop.. ivan was lookin for a cardigan.. 39 at the 2 shops at far east seemed too ex.. so we went to penin to buy his cardigan.. that was $20.. lols.. was tired that i slept on the bus to penin.. Zzz..

later..

-money is not the root of evil..
-the love of money is the root of evil..

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9:45 AM


its been quite some time..
graduation was jus saturday and i moved on to arrow.. its something i would choose to avoid if possible.. but clearly.. things like that dont happen.. mixed feelings of goin on to a new place.. my first service of arrow was alright.. service seemed kinda same as dare service.. praise and worship, preeching and all.. though its jus different.. the people.. the feeling.. the atmosphere.. the.. "know no one" feeling.. but everyone seemed pretty friendly.. for now..

well.. im invited to go to the caregroup gathering.. though its a jc gathering and im not in any way goin to a jc.. haha

a new season to life.. new things.. but i know.. everything will work together for good..

-love money or love people?
-use money or use people?

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5:27 AM


what profits a man who gains the whole world but loses his own soul?

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10:06 PM

a few videos that i took at encounter jesus3 camp that i came back from last week.. it was the first night.. the first service.. i was doin the lights.. the first one was suppose to be an opening.. my advice is to turn down the volume before playin cos its kinda loud.. U cant expect much from my digital camera that has such limited functions.. the quality is not at all good.. both the video and sound..

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8:32 PM


have been busy since i came back from ej3.. quite busy.. now i have fever.. but by grace i have life.. since i came back.. i have been busy - painting my room - watching Heros - and resting.. its been so long since i last blogged.. i guess im doin it only when i feel like it..

up till now.. ive finished painting 2 walls of my room.. thanks to ivan and wai leong.. who helped me with the first wall.. 2 grey walls.. not sure when ill continue with it though.. now my rooms in a mess..

ive cut a few new stencils.. one which im very proud of.. - zaraki kenpachi.. another is the skeleton of a hand.. and a flamable sign.. kenpachi turned out real nicely.. though there are some flaws i know of.. but it still turned out okay.. the skeleton hand one was good.. i din screw it up.. it looks so good.. but the flamable sign.. sorta screwed it up a bit.. figured cuting thin lines would be sucidal.. well the stencil is still alright and usable.. cant wait to use them..

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6:22 AM


ten years of education
forced into wasting our golden years
to do what we never loved

so much for education
so much for schools as prisons
caught up daily with useless teachers

the upbringing without freedom
no childhood for the children
to pursue their dreams and interests

what happened to freedom of speech
and voicing of views
when you lock up the kids in schools like jails

all these years of education
what have we learned?
what have we learned?
are we even taught to love?

wrote this myself in veiw of education of today..

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11:30 AM


jus came back from challet.. i slept for long long.. woke up at eleven after sleepin since twelve.. andmy arm still aching now.. wooo.. damn it was fun.. 4E challet was fun.. it was fun.. it was fun.. chasing after pussies outside the red house.. got stopped by cops.. crazy tiring cycling.. swimming and relaxing.. bbq food.. running around the challet playing escape.. and having fun where ever we were.. ill write it all if i had the time.. but later got dare.. and serving after the long break.. got to sleep to wake up in the morning at ten..

city without freedom.. a town of laws.. nothing to express.. crying out for a revolution..

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1:40 AM


FINALLY!!

im done with the new skin.. though it doesnt look that great.. somemore got the background image.. not nice.. i know.. but im gonna leave it for now.. cos challet is in a few hours.. damn.. its four alr.. spent so much time on this.. dono why the template thingy doesnt load.. then made me make the changes another time.. lucky i got save.. if not need to do a third and forth time..





4E07 challet in a few hours.. 8hours more to meet at tiong..

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3:50 AM


ITS OVER!!! IM DONE WITH MY EDUCATION!! IM DONE WITH MY OI! LEVELS!!
song bo.. get outa my life and i dont wanna see U again.. i hate U.. U ruined me.. ... education.. ive thrown my books away.. ive trashed my papers out..
WOOHOOO.. never felt better in my secondary school life..

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oops.

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5:26 PM


- not gonna blog until end of o levels -

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9:54 PM


today jus came back from queensway.. and bugis.. bought some couple of stuff.. a water bottle bag.. a mcr shirt.. my lip stud.. and i went to tapered my jeans.. for a 12and a half.. Zzz.. i gotta go study soon.. looks like my skin no prob liao.. good.. haha

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6:29 PM


jus put in new skin.. but got big problem.. im nt gonna care for nw la.. cnt be more than bothered..

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2:35 AM


woke up this morning..
something about today..
i realised its only morning..
theres still hours till end of day..

sian.. today got tuition again.. at 5.. i better stop usin the com and do my work.. from 5 till 7.. and probably even later.. it tends to drag a little.. up to half n hr.. then either stay at home or find the rest at bukit merah maC.. then at nine.. ... ... but i would expect a little delay here there.. ...

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1:22 PM


I see the king of glory
Coming down the clouds with fire
The whole earth shakes, the whole earth shakes
I see his love and mercy
Washing over all our sin
The people sing, the people sing
Hosanna, hosanna
Hosanna in the highest
I see a generation
Rising up to take the place
With selfless faith, with selfless faith
I see a new revival
Staring as we pray and seek
We're on our knees, we're on our knees
Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like you have loved me
Break my heart for what is yours
Everything I am for your kingdom's cause
As I walk from earth into eternity

Hosanna by hillsongs united

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6:44 PM


ive decided to blog less.. i hav to study study.. ive hardly touched any of my holiday homework.. hardly did anythin for my o levels.. at least i tell myself to spend less time on blogging.. ill leave it dead for the next few months.. only a couple of post every now and then.. thats probably how itll be.. need to balance balance how i spend my time..

today very very full of things.. i woke up late.. abt one plus.. mus sleep early and sleep enough these few days.. then tuition at 3.. tried to do do my homework as much as i could before 3.. then ended late.. like 5 thirty or so.. even though supposed to end at 5.. then eat and nw im doin this.. meetin wai leong at 7.. to go for takewondo at night.. if dn hav tuition i definitely go find the rest of them who are studin at bukit merah maC..

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5:37 PM


i said goodbye to yesterday..
my last goodbyes were never said..
wished i could turn back time..
to when things seemed fine..
when U were still here..
i held on to my dear..

but now Ur gone..
my last goodbyes were never said..
at light of dawn..
U left.. i was too late..
now all i want..
a one last time..
all i want..
jus to say goodbye..
to say to my love..
that when shes gone..
i will always think of her..
till whenshe makes that call.. again..




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4:50 AM

done at home

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4:27 AM


stop sayin all this rot..
stop saying what im not..
ill live as what i am..
dont you giv a damn..
say what U want..
ill do what i want..

call me what im not..
in my jacket and cap..
i say im not that hot..
and U say all that crap ..
about me

so wont U let me be..
hear my plea..


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2:23 AM


slip me into dreamland..
where its only you and me..
this reality is jus too bland..
nothing tastes so sweet..

run with me..
we'll never get weary..
fly with me..
we've never felt so free..
like the land of honey..
nothing tasted this sweet..
like the land of honey..
we'll walk on golden streets..

the moon that never dims..
the sun that away shines..
the sky that reflects him..
this heaven on earth combines..

so dont wake me up..
im sleepin in my heaven..
im seeing the light closeup..
im stayin in my heaven..
until the sun burns me up..

wish the sun would hide its face.. cos thers too little time to sleep..

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1:18 AM


Zzz... jus finished doin a new blogskin.. but i bit lazy to touch up.. its really been freaking long that i havent touched my blog.. over a month.. things are goin wild.. im still a kid.. im still nt doin wad is right..


this aint a perfect world
this aint a perfect society
Ur nt be my perfect girl
Ur nt my cup of tea

let time wash away..
Ur broken dreams
let it all fade away..
Ur sadded memories..

i dont mean to hurt U..
its nt me to tear things apart..
i dont want to be cruel..
if ever things to start..
i would jus pretend..
i wont be true to U..
it would all jus end..
all feelin so blue..

this love aint gonna last..
this aint love at all..
cry tonight if U must..
and move on as if im gone..







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1:35 AM


jus came back from planetshakers concert.. very good.. quite fun.. everything was great.. jus wished my friends were there.. Zzz..

in this third day generation..
nothing fails to compare..
but hearing the revelation..
believe with me if you dare..

cos
this is the sound of the walls..
hear them crumble and fall..
this sound of the rams horn..
the new generation is born..
as we walk through the valley..
though its nt where we wanna be..
we will rise up like the eagles..
above our giants.. we are victorious..

believe with me if U dare..
cos this world has yet to see..
believe with me if U dare..
Ur wonders and Ur glory..

one day this world will see the light..
one day they will stop this endless fight..
nations against nations..
breaking from good relations..
so we cry out..
cause them out of their fustration..
and we cry out..
lead them from temptation..

like U hav saved us..
and blessed us in excess..

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1:26 AM


from the start U jus werent really there..
only stopped by every now and then..
things were good with U here..
but U left.. what could i say to change..
it wasnt that i shed a tear..
when U left.. it felt rather strange..

dont believe U what U did was right..
dont believe i was ever in the wrong..
dont believe on my own.. i cant take flight..
dont believe theres no reason for this song..

U were once here.. but now Ur gone..
once a while, jus appear..
now ill jus rather be withdrawn..
Ur words they come.. true but crude
U know.. but dont understand..
i hope U go.. and hav made Ur last stand..
cos i really dont wanna see you anymore..
tell me.. what for? what for?
U should hav left shuttin the door..


-my response to someone i wished wouldnt care after U left.. cos in the end U wont understand.. U cnt be what U used to be.. cos Ur nt always here..

all written by me..

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12:46 AM


long long time nvr blog.. so sian.. jus came back from camp.. slept frm 5 till eight.. camp was good.. ltr got tuition.. a bit sian la.. its really really long that nvr blog.. but all this while jus din felt like bloggin.. so many things happened..



jus had camp.. was fun.. quite la.. my grp say i talk more and open up more.. Zzz.. really meh? blaH.. no la.. it was jus me.. my group won.. jrockz 2.. but kai yan once said.. winning is jus a bonus.. the games were fun.. the services were good.. im jus lazy to explain.. but everythin was good.. a very satisflyin camp.. wateva the spelling la.. sometimes.. i jus wished my friends would know god..

so many things happened.. i havent done any holiday homework yet.. and i dono wad week is it nw.. i tink 3rd.. if im nt wrong.. And.. my art is screwed.. ive lost my direction and jus tryin to find my way back.. its crap.. totally..

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1:49 PM


As I walk through the valley,
of the shadow of LA.
The footsteps that were next to me,
have gone their separate ways.
I've seen enough now, to know that beautiful things,
don't always stay that way.
I've done enough now,
to know this beautiful place,
isn't everything they say.

I heard that evil comes disguised,
Like a city of angels,
I'm walking towards the light.

Baptized in the river,
I've seen a vision of my life,
And I wanna be delivered.
In the city was a sinner,
I've done a lot of things wrong,
But I swear I'm a believer
Like the prodigal son,
I was out on my own,
Now I'm trying to find my way back home.
Baptized in the river,
I'm delivered.
I'm delivered.

You're from a small town,
you're gonna grow up fast,
underneath these lights.
Down in Hollywood on the boulevard,
the dead come back to life.
To the praying Mother,
The worried Father,
Let your children go.
If they come back they'll come on stronger,
and if they don't you'll know.

They say that evil comes disguised,
Like a city of angels,
I'm walking towards the light.

Baptized in the river,
I've seen a vision of my life,
And I wanna be delivered.
In the city was a sinner,
I've done a lot of things wrong,
But I swear I'm a believer.
Like the prodigal son,
I was out on my own,
Now I'm trying to find my way back home.
Baptized in the river,
I'm delivered.
I'm delivered.

Baptized in the river (on my own).
Baptized in the river (on my own).
I wanna be delivered.
(on my own).
(on my own).

Baptized in the river (on my own).
I wanna be delivered.
Baptized in the river (on my own).
I wanna be delivered.
Baptized in the river (on my own).
I wanna be delivered.

I confess I'm a sinner,
I've seen a vision of my life,
And I wanna be delivered.

The River by Good Charlotte

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6:29 PM


very long nvr blog liao.. ive always been busy.. too busy for the com.. and when i do.. i hardly hav time to blog.. everyday dn even hav enough sleep.. today almost could nt wake up to go to sch..

monday.. i jus pierced my lip..shahril pierced with me.. it wasnt very painful.. but it was painful to hear my parents nagging after that.. talk so much.. abt all.. my piercing.. my studies.. sian.. i thought to close the hole.. cos it was troublesome.. taekwondo everytime cannot wear the outside.. hav to take out.. then phelan also.. i pierce alr then he warn me abt it.. then tues the training i wore the inside pin only.. hoping it wouldnt come off.. and it didnt.. even though my stud was short.. so i bought a longer one.. so that the outside wont close cos its too short.. i jus learnt hw to put in myself.. cos all along iqbal helped me.. the long stud is uncomfortable though.. esp when eating.. but takin it out wheneatin is still the best.. i think i close the hole soon.. go taekwondo not that good to wear.. esp with all that movement around.. the last training.. master nvr come.. so it wasnt that bad.. today training.. i somehow dn feel like goin..

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6:24 PM


This may never start.
We could fall apart.
And I'd be your memory.
Lost your sense of fear.
Feelings insincere.
Can I be your memory?

So get back, back, back to where we lasted.
Just like I imagine.
I could never feel this way.
So get back, back, back to the disaster.
My heart's beating faster.
Holding on to feel the same.

This may never start.
I'll tear us apart.
Can I be your enemy?
Losing half a year.
Waiting for you here
I'd be your anything.

So get back, back, back to where we lasted.
Just like I imagine.
I could never feel this way.
So get back, back, back to the disaster.
My heart's beating faster.
Holding on to feel the same.

This may never start.
Tearing out my heart.
I'd be your memory.
Lost your sense of fear.
(I'd be your memory)
Feelings disappeared.
Can I be your memory?

So get back, back, back to where we lasted.
Just like I imagine.
I could never feel this way.
So get back, back, back to the disaster.
My heart's beating faster.
Holding on to feel the same.

This may never start.
We could fall apart
And I'd be your memory.
Lost your sense of fear.
Feelings insincere.
Can I be your memory?
Can I be your memory?

'memory' -sugarcult

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12:38 AM


sian.. damn sian la..

hp kanna confiscated.. ccb sally lim.. come my class durin recess.. when we playin music with my phone.. i managed to take it away before she see anythin.. she check the place cannot find anythin.. ask me i also say dono.. then i eatin in class only.. the way she talk to me.. i know my food confirm will be taken away.. so i jus eat anther bite.. then she stop me while i walkin back to my seat.. ask me to wad stop eatin.. put the food in the bag all that shit.. then i put the food in the plastic bag.. then walk back to my seat.. wantin to put it in my bag.. hoping she let me keep it.. then she ask me.. i say i put in my bag la.. crap la.. then say no wad.. after that i noe that my food confirm gone liao.. so i jus kp her lor.. she ask for the bag.. i emptied the bag for her.. then she ask for the whole bag with the food.. i left it on the table for her.. that made her more nt happy.. after that then giv her.. then she wad nt happy wit my attitude.. wads wrong wit my attitude.. i wan to keep the food.. U wan throw away.. fine.. but still wan to talk for so long abt my attitude.. it would tak more than talkin to me to change my attitude.. and i dn understand why the hell the stupid teachers everytime wan to come and find food with us and throw away.. bloody hell.. at the most i keep in my bag or ask me go dn canteen eat.. but they dn let.. really hope they one day starve to death sia..

then after that.. confiscated my phone after i owned up it was my phone that made the music.. at least she gav to ms kang.. nt that bad.. i got back my sim card n memory card.. then ive been usin my bros hp since fri.. though i dn think my parents know abt it.. dn wan them to know.. i jus dn msg in front of them.. but if they find out.. then i jus say hp confiscated.. and that ill get it back in a few days.. lolx.. had thoughts of buyin a new phone.. its hard to live without one that has mp3 function..

Zzz.. nw im tryin to study more.. but i forgot to bring hm phisics paper hm sia.. die lor.. monday go sch hav to chiong physics liao.. somemore mr chan wans our file.. i dn noe wher all my papers gone to.. monday is practical and physics paper.. nt sure if im ready for it.. haiZ..

one whole day spent today.. went for dare frm 12 to 6.. then went to play normanton escape.. ther was jar, shahril, janvin, ho wai, ranil n me frm our class.. while the rest were frm the estate..so it was fun.. returned hm damn tired..


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11:34 PM


One night and one more time
Thanks for the memories
Even though they weren't so great
He tastes like you only sweeter

One night yeah and one more time
Thanks for the memories
Thanks for the memories
See he tastes like you only sweeter
Ohhhhhh

-thnks fr th mmrs

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11:11 PM


sian.. today din go sch.. started out as my father waking up late.. which in turn woke me up late too.. (normally i should wake up by 630.. its jus enough time if i wanna tak a showerr.. and get down by 655) i was damn tired in the morning.. i was woken up later than 640.. and was hardly even awoke.. was jus too damn tired.. so i jus slept.. i hardly thought abt anthing my father said.. i in care abt missin sch.. all i wanted was to sleep.. lol.. i though ill jus go to sch late.. thats all..

but i jus slept on and on.. it was too good to stop.. ther was NE trip today.. so i knew i had to go to sch.. so i met phelan who also din go for lessons.. and went to sch.. after sch.. NE trip was rather boring.. except for me taking intersting photos and that period of time everyone on the bus clapping n cheering to whatever the guide said.. it stopped when we were tired of it.. everything else the guide was saying.. no one was ever listening..

i took pics of jason holding umbrella and loking as if he putting his arms ard ms kang.. lol.. i was also tryin to get shots of chan.. his facial expressions when looking at hw ms kang handles our class is like.. lol.. interesting enough to wan to tak.. it was difficult to tak a good shot while nt making it look obvious.. i held the cam in my hand.. all the way down below waist lvl.. tilted the cam in the angle to get a good picture.. then finally pressing the button lightly for a couple of seconds to let it focus before taking the picture.. within the many i took.. there was one wherhis hand was at his nose.. which made it look like he was digging his nose.. it somehow feels risky to put it up anywhere online.. its nt kang or aj who dont know anythin..

i still hav to study for some verbal test that everyone say is goin to come out again today.. from what i was told.. he gave qns of things he havent taught to the class.. i finished qns 3 of poa ws.. borrowed frm phelan.. but i cnt balance it.. that stupid mdm teo.. she n her old fashioned way of teaching.. im still angry wit her.. and im nt goin to rely on her.. best that she leave.. quickly giv me the damn test to get the hell out of mdm teo class n go back to palan lessons.. !! damn that mdm teo.. that day in class jus cos i tooked out my shoe.. she go dragged it out and kicked it out of the room.. locked the door.. i of ocs would nvr let it stay ther.. and i went out to get it.. stupid old hag.. dirty my shoe.. hell ill nvr rely on her anymore.. these days.. which teacher will ever drag and kick students shoes outa da class.. the most they ask us to wear it back.. while all along no teacher has ever told me to.. stupid old hag..

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12:17 AM


I found a switch
You turn it on
I hit the ditch
You carried on
I was so near
Now you're so far
Are you quite sure
Just who you are?

Oh I, know you could use a friend but you don't seem to have the time
Oh and I, I wonder if you'll ever get to say what's on your mind
Take a little time
C'mon Take a little time

I love it when you call
I love it when you call
I love it when you call
But you never call at all
So what's the complication?
It's only conversation
And I love it when you call
But you never call at all, oh....
He loves it when you call
He loves it when you call

Remember me?
I used to be
Your best-time buddy
That you couldn't wait to see
We're getting old
It takes it's toll
And hearts getting broken leads to people growing cold

Oh I, I'm flipping with a coin that's got a tail on either side
Oh and I, I'm gonna be the one who makes you stop and realise
You could have it all, yeah
We should have it all

I love it when you call
I love it when you call
I love it when you call
But you never call at all
So what's the complication?
It's only conversation
And I love it when you call
But you never call at all, oh....
He loves it when you call
He loves it when you call

Yeah baby, yeah I wonder were you been
Yeah, and I wonder who you've seen
And I hope you've found your dream
When you do I really hope it's what it seems

I love it when you call
I love it when you call
I love it when you call
But you never call at all
So what's the complication?
It's only conversation
And I love it when you call
But you never call at all, woo...

-the feeling
;love it when you call

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5:14 PM


i jused fised my skin bg pic.. its alrite nwbut doesnt look very nice.. so im goin to change it soon.. when im free lor.. i cn hardly even find the time to write new posts.. much less designing a new skin for myself.. lol.. this skin seems better if i could code it to hav the text all in a small space.. which doesnt require scrolling.. if i learn it.. then good lor.. ill make my next skin like that.. but for nw ill hav to jus leave it as this skin.. until i cn find the time to make a new one.. i guessed i made one related to bleach only because i was too carzy abt it when i read the mangato the latest.. cnt wait for the anime to come out.. the manga is alr so exciting..

i rather make a new skin.. then concentrate on making new digital drawings.. with the use of photo stock pictures.. and brushes.. all which i hope to create them myself from scratch.. taking the pictures with my camera and converting them into silohettes.. i still hav yet to learn how to makr my own brushes..



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12:30 AM


jus changed my skin.. i hope the problems dont persist.. i dont hav time to check on it.. got to go sleep.. or do some hw.. dn wanna go skool tml sia.. nx thing is to upload my previous skin to blogskins n see what ppl think.. but im too lazy la..

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11:37 PM


its been long long since i blogged.. hav been busy.. or mayb jus wasnt able to find the time to.. or lazy.. jus got my handsock recently.. watched bean holiday movie quite a few weeks ago.. im nt even sure when i last blogged.. watched bleached all the way to the latest episode and manga.. cnt wait for the nx to come out..

jus went nite cycling.. nt really jus..saturday nite-sunday morning.. but i woke up at abt 7.. when i got hm at 10.. missed my stop.. then had to walk more.. im still suffering from aches in my ass ( or at least ard there..) and hand.. we seemed to hav been cycling in circles all nite.. when we could hav taken shorter routes.. cycled until damn tired.. the journey back was one that we didnt tak any breaks.. and there was a feeling of relief when we finally reached back to east coast.. and we had good food at macs.. lets see.. we went frm east coast to indoor stadium to suntec to esplanade.. then rested ther for a longer than usual break.. from there we went to clarke quay.. and then turned to peninsula cos there veri crowded and got police.. stopped at the 7-11 at peninsula.. then they wanted to go to doby ghout.. while we almost went to bugis.. we went thru smu ther.. crossing a few traffic lights beforereaching ps.. that area at cathay cineplex (if im nt wrong)has steps where we played ard for a while.. then we went ard orchard..from ps to orchard that diretction.. then we wanted to go to the youth park.. but we missed it cos it was closed.. and we made a huge round back.. seeing police.. there was a thrill to cycle faster.. we went further ahead.. i somehow cnt remember much of it at this part.. if i remember correctly.. until a certain point before ps that area we made a turn to fort canning ther.. saying that we wanted to go to sch.. funny thing was that when we say a couple of police that seemed like a road block or smth.. we made a turn back and crossed over to the other side of the road.. went pass clark quay.. and we landed at zouk that area.. we went forward and wanted to turn towards the river.. but it was closed.. we turned to a dark route.. it was very very dark.. all we saw were darker puddles of water around.. shahril even scared everyone by saying there are holes in the ground.. we made it out to river valley.. the uphill drained much of our energy.. we jus went up.. until a point of turn.. we were hesitant to go.. but when we went ahead.. it was awesome.. downhill.. it was a breeze.. crossed a road.. and we arrived at riverside smth smth.. ther was a 7-11.. we stopped ther for almost an hr.. eating.. drinking.. talking.. resting.. nw that we were at the riverside.. finding our way to east coast wouldnt be difficult.. it was a matter of keep going.. i led them thru the river.. to esplanade.. ther was a block at the end of esplanade.. prabably construction work.. we entered the park at a busstop.. it was quite a long way.. some prefered goin the suntec way.. we reached the bridge.. had to carry our biikes up the stairs.. we crossed the bridge.. some lost their way and din 'exit'.. we had to find them.. and go on to kallang.. and thru the roads to eastcoast.. there were few cars.. so we had to road to ourselves most of the time.. when we reached eastcoast.. there was a sense of victory.. veri happy cn liao la.. it was still dark.. but we were tired.. went to macs.. eat.. and went to sleep for a while till 8.. when we returned our bikes.. it was lots of fun.. though it drained us physically..

nw i wana change my blogskin sia.. but lazy.. theres still hw to do.. i dn wanna go to skool sia.. cos tml art got presentation.. and i havent done anythin abt art for the past few days.. seems like weekend is the most difficult time to do hw or anythin like it.. cos its the weekend.. however you cn put it.. its that mentality of a long rest.. that i jus dn wanna do anythin concerning schoolwork..



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6:58 PM


laggy blogger.. havent log on for a while.. havent used the com much.. feel like changing my blogskin.. cos it doesnt seem to reflect me anymore.. at most it would at most take a night.. lol.. but weekday no time for these stuff..





yst i did homework! went home abt 6 plus after art lesson.. then i decided to go to sleep and wake up ltr.. slept abt seven.. woke up at abt 1.. my mother was still awake.. had my dinner.. was very good stuff.. then i did my homework.. i completed my poa homework.. then did some maths.. i emailed my artist statement late at 2plus.. supposed to be 12am.. lol.. then abt 4am i went to slp till 6.. somehow i like this kind of lifestyle.. gives me more time to do my homework.. though i cnt do it everyday..





then today.. new timetable.. history test is screwed.. hardly wrote half a page even when including the qns.. had health check.. our whole class waste time.. even the girls had their own meeting.. until abt fifteen mins left till end of the two periods then we strolled back to class the long way.. then our class made choo chu train.. poa i was sent to the old hag tchr.. i did the homework also nvr hand in.. waste my time sia.. earlier know no need do.. the old hag was a hell of crap sia..





assembly was a drag also.. so sian.. talking cork all the way.. went wit phelan to cut hair after sch.. it was ok la.. my alr short fringe is shorter.. overall seems fine.. but hav to wait for a couple of mths to wait it grow again.. Zzz..

kalai helping ms kang tie.. then she looking like a child sia..

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6:35 PM


had dare today.. pastor lawraunce ( lol.. dono hw to spell.. ) preached.. was good.. everythin was quite good la..nth to say.. im still looking for hand sock.. wanting to cut my hair alr.. cos its too diff to maintain.. so i always jus put my cap on.. for convinent sake.. and then jus cos of that ppl call me emo.. Zzz

still got hw to do.. i havent spent much time studying.. as i promised giam 2hrs a day in his office.. but finding the time is the problem.. -spending time using the com.. -staying out late.. -wasting time doin nth.. -watching tv.. - lazing ard.. -and even typing this word probably cost me another 10s.. if i could jus spend 2hrs a day studying.. when everything seems so difficult.. i jus start to get distracted and all.. then things dont get done.. cos even if thers a will to do.. thers also a dont know how to do.. then thers a lazy to do..

why a living thing.. full of life me.. gives up so easily to a no living textbook.subject? such things should not defeat me so easily.. i should not bow down.. all these things were created by god.. surely he can help me.. and in the end.. all the glory will go to him..

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12:30 AM


stayed awake last night to do for jarrvis a blogskin.. as always.. it isnt as easy.. faced problems.. even after loading to photobucket.. a couple of times i needed to edit again.. so hav to re-upload.. then the photobucket and blogger another ccb one.. even though i uploaded new image.. still showed in blogger or photobucket the old one.. crediting was a hassle.. mus go and see whose brushes i used.. then go back and find their url.. i even got permission from the artist of the picture.. i was done at about four of five am.. slept abt 6 hrs then jus nw i gave him the coding..

his blogger was lagging.. so i thought i would send him the background image.. after receiving it..
he said: and this is..
shit

fuking nice!!!
lol.. that scared the gell outa me at first.. cos ther was a pause after he said 'shit' i was like.. not nice no need say until shit rite.. i spent so many many hours doing.. not nice dont like jus say dn like.. then dn use lor.. wth..

but i wasnt that.. he said fukin nice.. though i din think its the same degree of 'nice' in my eyes.. then after i said dn take out the credits.. he said consider.. -- then he said put his name in.. lol.. -- doesnt make sense when i dont remember him doing anythin ^^.. he jus told me wad pic he wanted.. haha.. well wateva he case.. if i nt happy wit him i cn jus rip his blog apart cos his images are hosted by my photobucket acc.. hehe^^

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2:28 PM


today wake up liao no time for other things.. straight go sch for art lesson.. was such a drag to get myself up.. from 7am wanted to wake up.. lesson start at 9.. i finally woke up at 8:40.. obviously i was late.. the sso called lesson.. though we were hardly taught.. more of given time to draw our line drawings.. went for lunch halfway.. by the time we took our time go to tiong - take away kfc - go back sch with our own sweet time - then eat at foyer agaain takin our time.. even after eatin.. we still sit ther watch scenery.. by the time go back class.. almost 'lesson' wan to end liao..

went home.. had to bath and change to meet other rs at 4.. i was late.. buteven when i wass late.. only josh was ther.. waited for others took forever.. while waiting.. we frequently kana approached by ppl selling pens.. apparently for charity.. josh told me he once asked for license from those charity ppl.. then the person jus say 'dn wan donate then nvm lor' smth like that.. hmm.. one way to 'not donate'.. josh also said that some of these ppl get commision.. like every 10 dollars of donations.. get 3.. wad sia.. they work for old NKF ah? we kana asked for donations.. even when we say we bought one each alr.. they say " wah..so generous buy one.. buy somemore la!" dotx.. wth sia.. if i buy one i alr very generous ok.. -but i didnt buy any.. jus lied to them..- haha..

waited for other ppl at citilink.. or is it citylink? then went to the place.. oli dome if im not mistaken.. booked the whole place for severs appreciation night..waited for quite a long while before my growling stomach could be fed.. the food was power.. got standard sia.. played a couple of silly games.. - i took out my shoelaces from my shoes in vain.. yum seng was veri frequent.. before eating got.. before lucky draw got.. while eating also got.. ther was a few items.. bryan sang french song.. and others also.. then it was the last item.. highlight sia.. first it was pastor dan dancing few others blanga.. but after that he asked for one each from every misistry to get them to dance.. it was hillarious at some points.. watching them dancing to the music.. pastor dan changes the song every so often.. this severs night certainly mermorable..

-do i really look that emo?

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12:28 AM


w00ts!!!!
finally done with my new layout and design.. i designed it in photoshop myself.. with the pic from devianart.. still learning to design with photoshop brushes.. now that i know how to download the brushes to photoshop.. though i hav to admit.. i still cant code the layouts entirely myself yet.. still learning ya.. wah.. spent a couple of hrs.. spent the morning.. faced some big problems sia.. seemed as if it took me forever to figure it out.. but now that im done.. ima so satisfied and happy and glad and proud of myself.. cos i can boldly call this my work.. haha.. finally.. something that thrills me to do.. got to do some touching up and crediting for the pic.. and mother bugging me to go sleep.. but still.. not so soon

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6:34 AM


Now I know
That I can't make you stay
But where's your heart?
But where's your heart?
But where's your

And I know
There's nothing I can say
To change that part
To change that part
To change

So many
Bright lights they cast a shadow
But can I speak
Is it hard understanding
I'm incomplete
A life that's so demanding
I get so weak
A love that's so demanding
I can't speak

I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Honey if you stay
I'll be forgiving
Nothing you can say can stop me going home

Can you ?
My eyes are shining bright
'Cause I'm out here on the other side
Of a jet black hotel mirror
And I'm so weak
Is it hard understanding
I'm incomplete
A love that's so demanding
I get weak

I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Honey if you stay I'll be forgiving

Nothing you can say can stop me going home
These bright lights have always blinded me
These bright lights have always blinded me
I said

I see you lying next to me
With words I thought I'd never speak
Awake and unafraid
Asleep or dead

I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Honey if you stay I'll be forgiving
Nothing you can say can stop me going home

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10:21 PM


i finally made all the changes to the template.. its different now.. though not so obvious.. im hoping i cn learn more of this coding on my own.. so i wont rely on other ppl source and edit it.. which is very limited.. compared to designing and coding it every way i want it to be..

sunday alr.. yst had dare to play #3.. it was still ok good.. played one game only though.. doesnt make much diff to me.. then to the concert they call it.. everything about it was wonderful.. the lights... the sound.. but i only wished mah friends were there.. its more than sad that they were not free.. hopefully i would be able to make it for the planetshakers one.. june..

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9:59 PM


broke mah hse key yst.. i was able to tak it out at first.. but iput in again.. then cannot come out liao.. then when i came home aft takwondo.. the lock change to new one.. cost mah parents 100bucks as they said.. luckily they din force me to pay for it since i was da one who caused it..

today was chinese prelims.. and i jus knew it when i reached sch today sia.. how much worse can it get.. i asked mah friends till they were fedup wiff me.. i tot it was in class.. but it was in hall.. i tot it was after skool.. but it was right afta fraGRaising.. ok.. so i screwed up the prelims.. esp the compo.. like everyone else.. i was forced to do the last qns coz i din understand the first 2.. after repeating my points for 3 paragraphs.. i stopped at half a page and din noe wadd to write.. slept for quite a while till one teachher woke me up by tapping on me.. (unlike kbg who shoke me to nightmares..) and wai leong right behind me keep kicking my chair for nuTs man.. and it wasnt Ur normal kick.. he tapped on making my chair vibrate.. so damn bloody irritating man.. went for recess.. at abt ten plus.. paper 2 seemed a little better.. did the close passage.. skipped number compre and went straight to written compre.. i figured out i might not hav that much stamina for doing so much.. did lots of copying of the passage.. only 2 qns i left out.. went back to mcq and anyhow quess any number for it.. felt better abt it than paper 1..

after sch.. simply stayed ther after the paper for quite some time.. even after sch end.. did nth.. until went ta tiong eat kFc.. and we decided to go to meraH library to try study and make some use of our time.. wai leong ps us.. at the library.. we went ard the entrance got lots of science fun stuff.. puzzle.. magnet.. most of all had fun.. when we finally went up.. each of us did our own things.. at least for a while la.. jar drew on his new sketch book.. phelan as usual smsing.. i was browsing comics on the shelves nearby.. then shahril agreeded to be my model.. to tak some photos for my art.. he was good model.. i was good camera man.. soon after i took different moves and in different angles.. we soon verntured to taking photo movie.. dono what shahril called it.. cnt remember.. but that was wad we did.. i took pictures frame by frame.. photo by photo and slowly made it look like a movie.. at first it was his pencil case.. then his hand came into place.. and took out a calculator and he pressed hello on the calculator.. was quite smooth at first.. was a good first time for me i guessed.. shahril said he done it b4 at hm.. made another one of him walking.. then kicked my camera and i made it look like my camera flew.. haha.. now this is something intresting..




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9:21 PM


sian.. today went to see giam.. 1145.. stand ther in his office with my parents for more than half hr.. all beng gek fault.. listen to him talk.. she send ppl to principal.. anyhow send one sia.. she say that phelan distrup class and talkative.. when its jarr who is the main one.. ranil also got kana.. when he shldnt.. lol.. waste his time..

he ask us all got standard qns.. first is ask wad is our aim after o lvls.. then ask us wad we will do to acheive that.. in between got lots of other small things.. and ask us qns and ssay he got say in assembly.. i din noe wad to ans.. almost every qns.. din noe wad is the mark for b4.. din noe wad is the challenge he gave in assembly.. din noe wad was the target for our corhord.. the funny thing was.. he talkin halfway then his brown fur on his chair drop over.. then his hand went over but it jus fell.. i almost laughed out loud..

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5:34 PM


damn.. finally made the changes.. changed the background.. changed the image.. the credits too.. the imagees from devianart.. jus edited it in photoshop.. the next step is to figure out how to write the codes myself to make it more personalised.. and now its late.. everyones alseep.. takewondo tml.. Zzz..



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12:46 AM


Zzz.. din go to sch again today.. jus cos i hav 2days mc.. then my parents ask me if i wan to go to sch.. actually i wanted to go to sch one.. but cos they ask.. i also dn want to say i wan to go sch.. so in the end the let me stay at hm.. Zzz.. veri sian.. shld hav gone to sch.. sure got lots of hw piling up.. and jar pon today the first 2 lessons.. if i went to sch mayb i might hav went wit him.. shld hav gone to sch..

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2:32 PM


so today i pon sch.. woke up and din feel like goin to sch lor.. its one of those days.. so i woke up and used the excuse of me havin a cold (which i really had..) it wasnt that bad.. it was better than yesterday.. it was the.. jus felt like nt goin to sch.. sch days.. everytime so sian.. no time for beauty sleep.. then weekends most of the time very packed.. everyday after sch - stay out late - go home later - sleep after 12.. can never get used to so little sleep.. a break from this hectic lifestyle.. almost every week i have this break.. where it is not goin to sch.. doesnt seem wrong.. i like it.. the thing is needing the mc.. while phelan says he everytime pon nvr giv mc.. oh well.. thX to a blur form tchr kangbengek.. shes the only one who wants to call my parents.. haha.. 7 entries of jurnal all not done.. sleeping in test.. and while phelan could pon everytime without gettin caught.. i nvr did that sort of thing.. except for the last day of last year.. that i pon without mc cos it was the last day..

oh well.. woke up in the afternoon.. had plenty of sleep.. did my art cos dont wanna get screwed again for nuts.. other ppl nvr do anythin she hardly day anythin.. i draw out my ideas then she criticised almost everyone of my drawings.. though she may b stating some facts.. but what mun yee say and wad mdm teo say all so different.. the friday mdm teo say i find alot of images.. the nx day lee flipped my jurnal and critised everything she possibly could.. one has better opinions on me.. while the other has negative.. "tried to be perfect.. nothing was worth it.. "jus try to be what i m.. and do wad i can.. at least i dn hav to see her too often.. at least i hav friends to help me as models for my drawings..

sian.. fullmeatal alchemist tak so bloody long to load in youtube.. like one min to load 5s.. the manga and anime seems different though.. but its so irritating for the load time is long.. moreover.. theanime dn hav full.. mus go by part 1 part 2 part 3.. good anime but super long load time..


i watch the world turn
i felt my soul burn
if time were to stand still
i hope i could find you
but if i ever do
how would U feel?
all i wanted
was one more day
jus to see your face
again
my selfish desires
kuMWaI­­®

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3:13 AM


stupid kang beng gek..
best she go home bake cake..
today come to class got test..
the whole class say dont have..
give out papers sit behind..
i thought she one eye blind..
comprehension..
i did 8 question..
ten thirty.. very sleepy..
thought she doing her thing cannot see..
sleep sleep sleep halfway..
suddenly got nightmare..
two errie arms came from the back..
shaking me up from dreamland..
beng gek gave me heart attack..
stupid beng gek..
dont ever wanna see U everr again..

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11:12 PM


went to watch just follow law, four thirty today.. seems to hav a lot of hidden meaning of some sort.. but the most unrealistic part abt it is the body switching.. which contridicts with everything else of the story being that it is easy to relate to the singaporean life in one way or another.. besides that.. alot of humour especially with nii na buu.. and the indian security guard.. asking how to spell VIP.. wheel clamping the fire engine.. and repeatedly saying somemore..






-till the feeling fades..
ill still dream of U when im asleep-
-till i can keep you off my thoughts
ill still be writing this lines-
-till i can erase those memories..
ill not be able to foget the unforgetables-
-till it all fades away..
ill not regret doing it all again-

¥

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10:20 PM


chinese new year seem to pass so quickly.. nw is alr tuesday.. homework still nt done.. eve seems like the most fun.. sunday also.. then monday so sian.. last day alr.. no mood to do homework at all..

had dinner at uncle's place for reunion dinenr.. oh ya.. slept till abt 6 that day.. cos reached hm at 7am that day.. steamboat wit classmates.. lols.. chicken egg.. nii naoo bu!.. lols.. mango.. watched ghost rider at vivo.. then stayed at the back ther overlooking the sea and sentosa till abt 6.. so reunion dinner was ok.. it was alrite.. had the raw noodle pull high high.. veri nice.. everyone seem to say abt y wai leong so sad.. accompanied justin play sparkles.. while i kept the fire alive for him.. in the end made a mess cos of all the ashes from all the burning of the paper boxes.. then happy new year..

first day.. go grandma hse.. my parents pun seh me.. i had to walk ther alone.. dono y they woke me up so late.. went ther eat lunch.. then the younger generation in our family played majong.. i joined in of cos.. at first early game i won a little.. then slowly i lose lose then no more money liao.. abt three thirty went to church.. sat with my parents at indoor this time.. the msg was abt chinese new year.. was very meaningful espspecially for this occasion.. after svc ate dinner at auntie joann's ther.. again eat the yu shen.. but this time put ther nvr pull high high.. which seemed awkward.. after that then went to find ivan n wai leong.. as usual.. go play lan lor.. but went to cine first to check out the gaming place at the ninth floor.. then walked to paradiz.. irc closed.. Zzz.. folo them go arcade first.. a while ltr then go to oddesy.. played a game of dotai.. but dono y got disconnected halfway.. then play the fifa 06.. and i so damn bloody hate fifa 06.. it suX big time sia.. so diff to play.. pass the direction must press.. if nvr press properly then will kick the ball to pass to air.. i nvr scored one goal except when playing with com.. after laning.. decided to go to swensens instead of sin hoi sun to eat.. ivan first time at swensens.. and the food did not disappoint any of us.. all of us had backed rice but of different kinds.. then we shared a banana split.. was late abt 4 alr.. ltr also need to bai nian.. so we took a cab home.. the taxi driver seemed like a boduh.. go a weired way round..

slept and woke up abt 12.. like before.. my parents went ahead without me.. dono y they always wake me up when they abt to leave.. and when i was about to leave.. it started to rain.. zzz.. bo bian tak one unbrella.. thank god my red black checkled shoe wasnt that wet through the rain.. as it wasnt that heavy halfway.. like always.. lunch.. my uncle took us home for a while before fetching us to maternal grandma's place.. i packed my books and physics hw.. intending to do in my free time there.. but as expected.. i did everything but that.. stayed ther for dinner.. slept for abt an hr abt 5 to 6.. after dinner.. reach hm abt 9.. so nw sian.. gonna sleep soon.. ill think abt everything else when i wake up.. and probally count my red packets too.. ^^



-every place in town reminds me of what used to be..

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11:19 PM


ms kang confiscated my phone on friday sia.. for a couple of hours.. recess time left the phone to let jarrvis and whoever in class takcare of it.. cos they playin song.. and when i went up ms kang alr confiscated it.. according to jarrvis he say that he in toilet.. then wai leong wented to stop te thing but din noe hw.. but he could hav jus pulled out the poone from the audio-in wire.. Zzz then in class all try to help me get back.. cork up the story that i left my phone in class and then someone took it i dono.. which was basically how i got it back.. but it wasnt that straight forward though..

at first i tried to act emo.. she giv test then i dn do.. after that ms kang say ssay ahwile then ask whoever plug the phone in to own up.. in the end more than 5 ppl go to her.. while i go toilet.. i come back then say that after sch return me.. Zzz.. ok fine.. then ltr one pm waileong folo me go find her.. she say no no.. go back class.. wtf sia.. then after reading period i go i was realy after sch alr.. she in class.. luckily got more ppl to talk wit her.. then she say wan to keep it for the weeked.. wtf.. while i pertend to tak out the simcard memery card etc.. then ranil they all say say somemore.. then she finally gav in and let me tak back.. haiZ..

in addition to that.. everytime she looked at my hand that day.. she would say all sorts of nonsense.. "what happened to your hand? who are you mixing with?" she had said that for 4 different occasions.. lolx.. so naggy.. mayb monday ill get it again.. cos i dont intend to speed up the rate of it fading away.. jarrvis one nicer sia.. Zzz..

i drew my hand.. i drew my hand.. apparently the nip of my pen niddle broke and bent when i dropped it on the floor.. so i could remove it.. and if if i wrote with it.. it would be super super inky.. then i used it to draw my hand.. drew the punk skull on my fore arm.. even after finishing it.. which took abt one period; less than thirty mins or so.. it was still inky and din dry.. so i used my full scap paper to abosrb the ink.. abt one or 2 times.. so that it wouldnt smudge when its so inky.. dotX.. did one for jarrvis too.. his one so nice hope it doesnt fade off so soon.. mayb when it does.. ill draw something else on..

hehe- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -

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8:57 PM


Cry little emo kid
The camera wants your scars
Press the blade a little more
Celebrate self harm.
Make out with another guy,
Post up photos of that kiss
Bad poetry and tired clichés
Sleeves above the wrist.
Cry little emo kid
Are those jeans too tight
?Or is it that irritating fringe
Blocking out your light?
Star little emo kid
Everything you own
Listen to that whiney voice
No wonder you’re alone.
Scream into your diary
How hard your life has been
And how you cannot take much more
Life on the emo scene.
Wearing stripes and converse
With your stupid, painted hair,
Writing suicidal notes
Although you wouldn’t dare.
Cry little emo kid
Attention-whore your friends
Tears for songs by pre-school bands
Until the fashion ends.

reproduced without permission from ~inlondontown

Labels: emo poem

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8:45 PM


in my day i stayed the same
until that moment U came
a glimpse of U was all i saw
the light of an angel
was so quickly gone

i only wish i could turn back time
to times you were just right here
i wish i could turn back time
all those days are now so dear
and if i could ever do that
ill stop time to feel the unreal

all along so still
i stumbled upon the sight of you
so captivating
you stole my heart away
mayb it wasnt you
mayb i was the one who gave it to you

yaya..yaya..yaya

so wont you come back
come back to let me feel the unreal.. ya

minE©

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10:21 PM


w00h00..
singapore won..
even though it thailand drew first blood..
singapore still won!..
sian.. only celebrating alone..
ole.. ole ole ole.. haha

lollipop tommorow

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10:21 PM


I want to live in a world of peace
Without conflict, like the one I've seen in my dreams
I just can't keep it inside
I've got to say what I wanna say
The bus stop at twilight, on the way home
Saying bye bye bye to the sad backs of others
Your face doesn't show your fighting pose
A world like the one I've seen in dreams
Without conflict, daily peace
But in reality, I sometimes worry about
Love and the day to day grind
Those rolling days
You would never hold a lie, no never
All my loving, without it, I can't go on
Sweet love like I've seen in my dreams
Lovers searching for hidden faces
But in reality, the days we can't meet
Continue on but I believe in LONELY DAYS
Even if you stumble, WAY TO GO, YEAY YAY
A muddled rolling star!

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7:28 PM


somehow it felt like a busy weekend.. until now.. that is..

was at dare sat.. ended at abt 8 plus.. then go dinner n celebrate father n uncle bdae.. it was at some place named telok kurau that i nvr heard b4.. they finished eatin alr when i reached ther.. only left cake.. left the place abt ten.. then i met jar waileong n phelan n mun at vivo.. everyone seemed sad.. behind vivo facing the sea.. got sky got sea.. ther were a couple of stars.. after a while we decided to go to jarrvis hm to ton.. but we had to pretend to study.. and so we did.. all i did was x².. y².. it didnt mean anythin.. then scribbled lots of nonsense.. doodled some crap.. wrote my life out.. went dn to kick ball for a while then we slept for a while.. went hm at abt 10.. reached hm at 11.. rushed to church.. was late.. lunch at swensens.. slept thru the ride home.. Zzz..

nw its.. 714pm, feelin tired.. had less than 4hrs of sleep at jarrs hm.. but dn want to sleep.. dreaming's such a waste of time..
whats'NexT?

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6:53 PM


I'm seein red
Don't think you'll have to see my face again
don't have much time for sympathy
Cuz it never happened to me
You feelin blue now
I think you bit off more than you could chew
And now it's time to make a choice
And all I wanna hear is your...

So follow the leader down
And swallow your pride and drown
When there's no place left to go
Maybe thats when you will know
Follow the leader down
And swallow your pride and drown
When theres no place left to go
Maybe thats when you will know

And foolish lies well can't you see
I tried to compromise
Cuz what you say ain't always true
And I can see the tears in your eyes
And what you said now
Can't stop the words from running through my head
And what I do to get through to you
But you'd only do it again

So follow the leader down
And swallow your pride and drown
When there's no place left to go
Maybe that's when you will know
Follow the leader down
And swallow your pride and drown
When there's no place left to go
Maybe that's when you will know

Well I confess, I don't know what to make from all this mess
Don't have much time for sympathy
But it never happened to me
You Feelin down I don't know where i'll be when you come around
And now it's time to make a choice,
And all I wanna hear is your voice..

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1:02 AM


singapore won thailand jus nw!!!.. woohoo.. the atmosphere of the stadium was again veri lively.. we were always bias against thailand.. shouting against the rafree if he gav any yellow cards to our singapore players.. then dono why when got foul in the penalty box then the thailand ask for timeout or smth like that.. make us wait for nth.. so after abt ten mins then it was penalty and singapore scored.. everyone was so happy jumping for joy.. that was the goal that made us won them 2-1.. even after the penalty ther was still time to play.. and when the thailand players took corners.. we would jeer them.. we never cheered for the thailand players.. even when they were singing their national anthem.. we stayed sitted in difiance.. when it was our national anthem.. we stood proud and sang loudly.. how strange we only sang this loudly when thers a call for it.. unlike everyday flag raising in school.. the words hardly come out..

ive lost more than half my voice.. i had sore throat frm even before goin for the game.. so nw its worst.. guess tml nt goin sch..

still havent gotten over.. You

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7:23 PM


its been a while since i blog.. past few days veri tired nvr use com.. reach hm jus sleep.. jus got hm abt half n hr ago.. was wasting my time away in sch.. then go eat lunch at kfc.. as usual talk cork..

-friday go wit jaarvis and his friend repair hp.. he wanted to buy shirt then realised that his money missing.. lol.. then to bugis shop for some stuff he finding.. i hav yet to hand in fri physics hw.. cos i absent.. everybody hand in alr.. i tink.. sianZ..

-sat met jar at commonwealth after he finished his job.. i wanted to do too but i din wake up in time.. forgot ask parents wake up me.. forgot set my hp alarm.. Zzz.. go meet the shahril n sufi who were doin at holland.. then go qns way meet more ppl.. two of us no ticket for that day.. then went to jalan besar stadium to get but dn hav.. in the end jus go national stadium without ticket.. thank god ther was givin of tickets by sendin sms watever thing.. in the end i got the ticket and got in cn liao la.. the match was exciting.. the atmosphere of the crowd.. singapore won then everybody so excited all jump jump around.. ah hahaha... was so happy then.. wed goin again.. singapore vs thailand..

-sun wento tapered my jeans.. bought some stuff.. dogtag.. belt.. sian.. spent so much money..

sian.. i wan to sleep.. tired sia.. my sore throat worse than b4.. and i even ate kfc jus nw.. lol..

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6:46 PM


din go sch today.. cos i was a little sick.. and a little tired.. Zzz.. i cn only read fullmeatalalchemist vol 2 n 5.. cos they were the only ones avaliable when i went to the library.. also borrowed rave master that day.. though i watched it in anime alr.. wa.. today din go sch sure miss alot of things.. need to hand in physics ap hw.. got chem test.. got art.. Zzz




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10:55 PM


came home late today.. after 9pm or so.. borrowed some books from library.. comics actually.. haha.. did a little hw.. browsed some comics and books.. before that was at bugis.. took many funny pics..

i wan that blakRed checkled shoe sia.. my next target.. and i saw another redblak cap in 77th st.. same brand as my white n blak.. i do nt regret buyin my current one.. but i also wan the redblak one.. more the merrier.. if i buy mother sure nag one.. so tired..

left emaths hw to do.. tml recess then do la.. i wan to read the comics i borrowed.. sad is that the library dn hav full collection.. one by one by one all anyhw one..

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10:40 PM


came home late today.. after 9pm or so.. borrowed some books from library.. comics actually.. haha.. did a little hw.. browsed some comics and books.. before that was at bugis.. took many funny pics..

i wan that blakRed checkled shoe sia.. my next target.. and i saw another redblak cap in 77th st.. same brand as my white n blak.. i do nt regret buyin my current one.. but i also wan the redblak one.. more the merrier.. if i buy mother sure nag one.. so tired..

left emaths hw to do.. tml recess then do la.. i wan to read the comics i borrowed.. sad is that the library dn hav full collection.. one by one by one all anyhw one..

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10:40 PM


today lessons were fine.. no free lessons.. 2 ppl got sent ot of class during gYm lesson.. haha.. cos we were playin with our bluetooth name and we would laughOutLoudly suddenly.. kang lesson was a waste of time.. we made her angry when we joint tables.. then she pull the table out the books drop drop.. kpkb then ask us to speakers corner and talk cork wit us.. i was hardly listening.. took out the prefect pin frm phelan tie w/out him knowin.. theni gav to ranil.. assembly then he realise it was gone.. was shooting cards when bengek wasnt looking..

lol.. jaarivs:"money or life?!"
colin:"Ur mother la"

after sch eat liao went to watch sch team play against fairfield.. waited for the 14 for forever.. so many funny things happened i the game.. fairfield player kana langa in the head by boot.. another guy kana contact until he like wanto die.. walk 5s drop on the floor like vomit or spit likedat.. then the guy push push then wan to fight.. after watchin tak a long ride to tiong.. eat then go hm.. nw watching sg vs msia.. singapore win ah



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10:26 PM


Zzz.. sian.. sunday nite liao.. my physics bk left in class.. then tml morning hav to faster do ah.. hav to go slp soon.. right after this.. Zzz

woke up at eleven plus.. then straight away chiong to church.. then abit late for second.. todays msg abt the gift of the holy spirit.. after lunch went to bukitmeraH maC to do some hw with jar pw gen n wL.. mun extra haha.. then went to 8th floor see smth.. nt long after go play pool.. i was damn noob.. gen prO.. went to eat dinner ops safra the hawker ctr.. everyone complain the food not nice.. except mun who eat finish his megoreng lol..

halfway hm saw a blue familar car at kim tian rd turnin in.. inside got someone else.. lols.. me n phelan wanted to go up the lift see but when we went up.. we saw the car leave.. lol.. then nvr saw it again..

i tink i mus hav eaten too much frm yst nite steamboat after the fraG daY.. then today lunch also ate until full full.. dinnner also eat.. reach hm like got indigestion or smth like that.. Zzz..

wish i could go back to those times..
now they jus seem too faR aWay..
fAr aWay fOr fAr tOo lOng..
i keePdreaming..
dReaming to Relive `the past..
hOpefully i can fOrget them..

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10:31 PM


Zzz.. sian.. sunday nite liao.. my physics bk left in class.. then tml morning hav to faster do ah.. hav to go slp soon.. right after this.. Zzz

woke up at eleven plus.. then straight away chiong to church.. then abit late for second.. todays msg abt the gift of the holy spirit.. after lunch went to bukitmeraH maC to do some hw with jar pw gen n wL.. mun extra haha.. then went to 8th floor see smth.. nt long after go play pool.. i was damn noob.. gen prO.. went to eat dinner ops safra the hawker ctr.. everyone complain the food not nice.. except mun who eat finish his megoreng lol..

halfway hm saw a blue familar car at kim tian rd turnin in.. inside got someone else.. lols.. me n phelan wanted to go up the lift see but when we went up.. we saw the car leave.. lol.. then nvr saw it again..

i tink i mus hav eaten too much frm yst nite steamboat after the fraG daY.. then today lunch also ate until full full.. dinnner also eat.. reach hm like got indigestion or smth like that.. Zzz..

wish i could go back to those times..
now they jus seem too faR aWay..
fAr aWay fOr fAr tOo lOng..
i keePdreaming..
dReaming to Relive `the past..
hOpefully i can fOrget them..

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10:31 PM


today sch rocks. had 5 free periods.. woohoo.. song sia.. sec 1 recess went to eat liao.. then in class blast music thru the speakers in class.. had all the fun in class durin our recess time that period.. only had 2 lessons of chan n one sakeena.. sakeena lesson ruined the day.. we din expect her to come as everyone tot her period also free.. then alot of ppl din do her hw.. then got scolded.. chan lesson was practical.. it was good.. best sia.. best day ah.. if only everyday like that.. but minus sakeena that part cn liao..

then after sch go to lido to study.. abt eight of us.. i din actually study.. i slept through the rain then i ate kfc when i woke up.. only did one graph that supposed to hand in today in sakeena lesson.. and nw still hav todays math hw i din do yet.. partly cos i din copy dn the qns.. and still journal to write.. ill probally write what i wrote here nw to the journal.. and then still got spelling.. dn care la! haha - left them ard five thirtee.. then reach hm at 6.07? ard ther.- then chiong bath and come out to make in in time to cath the 630 bus to p:s.. p:w waitin on the bus liao.. i made it cos i ran most of the way ther to tiong.. if nt cmi liao.. haha

drum lesson seemed like the best one yet.. play song let us anyhw whack.. best sia.. i dn care wad the tchr say.. "the two of U playin rubbish" like.. wtf i dn care la.. i had fun happy liao boduh.. but the tchr play all the songs got generation gaP frm us one sia.. all the songs we dono hw to pla.. nvr heard b4 sia..

-its something unpredictable
-but in the end its right

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3:56 PM


jus came back hm.. whole day veri sian..
-chem lesson math book tchr take away.. then ask me why i nvr do the worksheet together..
-math lesson come liao then no book.. got taken away wit my hw.. so hav to go out of class n do again..
-english lesson i got caught givin sweet to ppl.. then bengek see liao i dumpped the rest of eclipse into my mouth abt 5 eclipse sia.. then got scolded and asked to spit out.. so i wento toilet untill almost finish then i go back class.. it was fun and funny at the same time.. haha
-after sch needed to see mdmGym to go thru chem.. a bit the sian la..

Zzz..

i dont wanna know..

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3:44 PM


went to watch singapore trash laos at national stadium jus nw.. had a roaring good time sia.. woohoo.. 11-0.. the last goal so nice.. kick rebound out then bicycle kick back in.. damn tired ah.. go sleep liao.. the 2 hw i hav dn care liao.. so tired sleep..

-so long sweet summer

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2:06 AM


din used the com much the past few days.. dn remember.. mayb it was jus yst.. was tired and slept early after druming.. as usual i din do hw.. i hate the rain.. got so wet jus finding a cab.. then both shoes wet.. went to sch today with damp shoes.. went to sch with only a dew coins in my wallet.. cos of the cap i bought yst.. then no money.. and mother nvr giv any.. say who ask me buy cap.. got so many cap at hm.. ( none of which i would ever wear) so i borrow money.. haiZ.. at least come hm she say a while ltr then she give some money for the weekend.. ^^

today.. the day was quite fine.. the skY was falling.. falling more rain.. fall until my shoe more wet.. my shirt bcome watery watery.. watery the floor all wet until the niTe haven havent finishh..

the past week was a little of a drag.. but bengek lessons are always so entertaining.. ah haha.. phelan that time scold her.. it was - kang grab phelan by the collar for a reason i forgot.. then phelan say why U touch me!.. " i complain to my mother" then smth like that.. then they continue to argue.. kang talk more crap.. -
benggek dono the fword sia.. jaarvis say say so many times she also dono.. then colin say kuku jiao she scold him for usin " abusive language" lmAO*
and even say boduh also.. she treat it as if scoldin a veri bad word but it only means stupid..
then waiLeong say intercourse she say cannot say this kind of langauge.. " im giving U demerit points" ah haha.. and she dn even noe the fword sia.. wth..
kang so gong.. i msg in class wit hp on the table also cn.. lol.. still remember we last yr cheat her one period and went for recess.. which meant that we had 2 periods of recess.. and once.. we said ther was a new car called puki caR.. then i draw and she believe.. so gong..
haiZ.. beng gek ah beng gek..




-itsabeautifulday

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10:30 PM


came back nt long ago after a bittersweet day.. it waso crap from the start.. pancake call abt 6 of us to the front for long hair.. other class the tchr a bit long also dn care.. our class the ppl.. short hair go out.. long hair nvr go.. then we try to escape but did nt in the end.. make me tio my 2 tail at the back gone.. my sideburn cannot see anythin.. my fringe cn call it gone.. in the end mui cut also cut so ugly.. whole day lesson all damn sian diao.. Zzz.. bo bian hav to go cut again..

after sch stayed in sch wit ncc ppl.. watched some ppl sing karaoke.. played a game of soccer.. went buy noodles.. then go to kfc.. smth like that.. they were laughing at my awfully cut hair.. lol.. but also nt my fault.. so i went to hav my hair cut again.. second time this month alr.. ultimately was cos of bengek..

so nw.. my hair is damn short.. almost botak.. but not.. seems alright to me..

LOL:isthisapartofnewbeginnings?

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8:53 PM


that day after flag raising got the prize givin for the robotics.. they won 3rd i tink.. and got a lot of prize.. 1g mp3.. out of the 5 in the team.. there was still someone who contributed to their win.. worst of all the teacher so ungratefull.. i design for them the sand king contributed to more than 20%++ if dn hav me they gonner liao lor.. lalala..

sian.. enough of it..

still dn hav any study mood.. i cnt find my poa ws to do the qns.. nvr do will tio kick out of class.. the first lesson alr stand behind the class.. apparently i cnt find my poa book.. (still*).. i wonder what other homework i still hav to do.. Zzz.. 0lvls this yr leh.. wad m i still doin sia..

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7:58 PM


Zzz. nvr go skool today.. i after so many days i nw then go see doc abt my nose.. got 2 days mc.. shld i go tml? lol.. after so long my nose still havent ok.. its killin me.. then got cca orientation.. sian la.. ltr still got drum lesson.. i dn wan to skip that.. and i hav to cut hair.. mayb tml.. i still hav till monday..

cb bro.. lend away my xbox game without sayin..burnout 3 takedown.. the whole of holiday i cannot play.. its the only game i would like to play.. all the rest if nt completed then is nt fun at all.. hope he give back today

-zZZ

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1:23 PM


jus came back not long ago.. dead tired ah.. whole day out.. wento sentosa.. jar. p.w shahril.wl. was a great last getaway before school starts.. fun in the sun haha.. then met up wit jy to watch movie together.. deathnote2 for the third time sia.. sian liao.. then my nose keep givin me problem.. watched with them only cos friend friend..

lol.. at the beach found expireed condom haha.. p.w go play with it until it tear.. oknvm.. at beach built sand castle.. lol sort of.. we made a damn big hole.. and a long gang to the water.. then the sand monster came and destroy it and no more..
lolx.. i brought along my speakers and jar took it.. put in his bag to blast around.. got alot of ppl lookin haha.. we were laughin crazy at first.. but after a while a bit paiseh.. jarr even blast and walk by polis officers in the mrt underpass..

too tired to say too much.. damn.. havent pack bag.. and hair still havent cut.. ill see wad tml brings..lolx.. ssooo tired sia

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11:04 PM


lols.. quite some days din post anythin liao.. tired all day.. yst went out all day.. then dinner with rs.. fun fun.. but went home very tired.. i dozed off while chattin wit ppl.. sorry ah.. haha..

sian.. its alr ending of holidays.. endin of 2006.. goin to a new year.. more new things awaits.. 2007 is here.. better things to come..

dono wad im goin to do today.. svc at indoor was great.. if i go countdn.. then sure ton.. then tml hw to go out wit friends? planned that tml go out wit some classmates.. was postponed partly cos of me.. so how? haha.. nt my prob..

-to a better year

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4:09 PM


jus finished watching rave.. groove rave adventure.. only had 50 episodes.. but the story still not yet end.. and i dn tink its gonna continue.. nice show.. jus that it doesnt cont.. unless i read the manga.. Plue.. lols.. the show ended without haru findin all the raves.. without elie finding back all her memories.. without musica finding silver ray.. without.. without finding stella memories or smth like that.. so many things nt concluded.. haiZ.. etherion

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7:27 AM


its alr nearing end of holis.. argH cRap.. i wish this never ends.. ahahaha.. been wasting my days and spending my nights doing almost nothing.. and my body clock is so screwed.. i jus woke up.. 2thirty-am.. when the world sleeps.. i wake up.. lol.. when they wake up i start to feel tired and sleep sooner or later..

dono wad to do liao.. the last days before it all ends.. then i shld work hard.. but i really work hard is another thing.. countless times i thought but didnt.. haha.. first must do holiday homework.. but wads the holiday homework ah? duHhhhhh..... 2 mths nvr touch anything concerning sch work watsoever.. hav to recall everything.. siaN..


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2:38 AM


slept for abt 12hrs.. around ther la.. ton for more than 24hrs.. lol.. if i counted correctly it shld be 30 hrs.. then went home and gong out.. wento indoor christmas svc at indoor stadium.. and woke up at 8am sun.. stayed outside throughout and went to eat dinner with cousin.. wanted to go hm but then did not.. we went to lan for abt an hr or so then had to rush to dobby ghout to meet the rest.. both of us tio spraay by the foam usin the excuse of us bein late..

walked ard aat orchard frm dobby.. i hated the foam thing spray.. its like.. normal normal U walk on the road among the crowd.. then someone see U happy happy take out the spray and say 'merry christmas' then spray at U..either U spray back or else U run away.. most of the time they walkin walkin and spray.. so U wan to spray back also diff.. alot of them in gangs.. either they all together gather spray.. or like wad one of us kana.. spray at them they all 10 ppl spray U back.. it was funnny.. cos he was jus standing ther.. sprayin at passer-bys sayin merry christmas.. then unlucky spray until someone who was goin with a gang.. he kana spray at by at least 10 ppl.. the scene was funny.. they didnt seem that friendly.. act as if wanted to shake hand then after the hand come out then tak away the hand.. --

after that walk to irc paradiz.. stopped by at cathay cineplax (i tink thats the place name) and went to look at a shop called ... forgot the name but all the coms ther so ex.. the mouse everything.. but it costs three fifty an hr if i heard correctly.. played abt 2 games at parasizirc.. then walked to pelinsula.. waited ther for the com that nvr came.. we walked to clark quay ther the mac.. me wl phelan n ryan walked to boat quay look for gen.. lol.. we walked a big big round.. when we went back.. the rest were out of macs alr.. then we wento sit at the river side as in the side of the river and talk.. talk alot alot of things.. then we thought of goin back to irc.. thinkin that ther would be com by then.. but the place so crap.. got gamester so empty but cloesd.. then the person in charge all along dn call ppl on the waiting list.. we waited a while for ppl to leave then we had com.. played abt one game or 2..then had lunch at macs at funan.. ther was only afew of us left.. abt 6.. i wastill alright when eating.. but on the way home.. i was gon out alr..

the rest of merry christmas day was spent sleeping.. lol.. wad a way to do things.. my com was left on and online all along..

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3:00 AM


The last that ever she saw him
Carried away by a moonlight shadow
He passed on worried and warning
Carried away by a moonlight shadow.
Lost in a river last saturday night
Far away on the other side.
He was caught in the middle of a desperate fight
And she couldn't find how to push through
The trees that whisper in the evening
Carried away by a moonlight shadow
Sing a song of sorrow and grieving
Carried away by a moonlight shadow
All she saw was a silhouette of a gun
Far away on the other side.
He was shot six times by a man on the run
And she couldn't find how to push through
I stay
I pray
I see you in heaven far away
I stay
I pray
I see you in heaven far away
Four am in the morning
Carried away by a moonlight shadow
I watched your vision forming
Carried away by a moonlight shadow
Star was light in a silvery night
Far away on the other side
Will you come to talk to me this night
But she couldn't find how to push through
I stay
I pray
I see you in heaven far away
I stay
I pray
I see you in heaven far away
Far away on the other side.
Caught in the middle of a hundred and five
The night was heavy but the air was alive
But she couldn't find how to push through
Carried away by a moonlight shadow
Carried away by a moonlight shadow
Far away on the other side.

-moonlight shadow.

dono y seemlike i wanto hear more techno-

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9:51 AM


waH.. jus ton overnight.. was fun.. though only 4 of us.. watched -deathnote2`

;quite good.. note bad.. but not that satisfied with the ending.. Light had a good plan.. but L saw through it.. so sad.. then misa blind one sia.. ryuk and rem are very different.. ryuk looks friendly but he wasnt actually helping anyone.. jus watchin show.. rem however looked ruthless but he had a gentle heart willing to sacrifice for misa.. haiZ.. nw.. since movie watched liao.. i wan watch the anime.. seems more original..

five in a lane wasnt a good idea.. very bad.. lol.. got trashed 7 - 2 in fifa.. carelessly gave chances.. the funny thing is that the 2 goals were scored by my keeper.. was lma-off my chair sia.. seems like the keeper more gifted in scoring than keeping.. lol run kitty run..

sian.. shld i sleep or not.. its been least sixteen hrs havent slp.. if dont.. i might not last.. ltr got dg gathering at 2.. then wad after that christmas gathering parents cg.. if i dont slp.. i need to last at least another 12hrs.. if i do.. i might oVersleep.. ahhh im startin to gong out alr..

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9:23 AM


watched finished trigun.. only had 26 episodes.. wad a dissapointment.. but wad cn i expect to develop in the story.. when it was jus about a gunman.. vash the stampede.. lolX..

watched deathnote anime till episode 11.. more intresting than the movie.. esp 11.. when the girl got her death notebook and used it to pose as kira.. and L jus revealed himself to kira.. lol.. L power ssia.. work as dective and all still cn go to same sch as lighTo.. 2 totally diff persons.. it was when the story started to get intresting at episode 11.. but i tink 12 not uploaded or smth else.. lols..

so nw currently waitin for bleach too.. somehow less intrested in it alr.. its dry.. mayb if it released its episodes more frequently.. dn tink its possible.. while other ppl hav been waitin longer than me.. cos i started watchin bleach only after i came back frm hk.. which is ard late nov.. while classmates hav been talkin abt it months before..

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3:00 AM


just stopped watchin trigun.. nw at 25.. startin to get a bit the boring.. sortof cos its gettin no where.. for many episodes itstill about vash and the knives.. mayb itry look for other nicer animes.. dono why i suddenly so hooked.. or not?

havin really weird sleepin hrs these few days.. that day ton.. slept 12hrs frm 7am to 7pm.. then stayed up.. till the next morning 11am.. then slept till five.. lol.. means stayed up 16 hrs? then slept for 6hrs? dono weather counted correctly.. lol.. hav to go sleep liao.. late late.. tml need to wake up early ard ten or elewen..


-counting the ways to where you are.

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10:48 PM


this holis has been lot of anime watchin.. lol.. first it was bleach.. then jus today.. past few hrs started trigun.. cos i was gettin a bit impatient to wait for bleach to be released only every week.. so i started to search for something i would get hooked on.. lol.. so nw watched 13 episodes of trigun liao.. after lookin ard..

lol.. bleach nw a bit sian.. the wait is killing the excitement.. even after watchin a few battles a secound or third time.. someone said ther was bleach movie in dec.. lol.. its mid dec alr.. wonder wher to find.. was kinda intrested in the manga.. but i heard it was cut short wher the bounto or wad was after that was concerned.. like go straight to aizen.. lol skipping 1yr jus like that.. then wai leong say until so eXciting.. got wad ichigo bcome wiZard.. then hollow form for 11s.. well.. thats wad i heard only..

trigun is kinda intresting.. heard of it.. but i wasnt intrested.. even after i watched the amv.. i was like.. wad so intresting abt guns and shooting.. but nw im watchin it.. oh ya.. i heard of it even before i started watchin bleach.. lol.. i remember last time everyone talkin abt bleach.. i act like i got watch.. i said i watched till episode 50 smth 60 smth.. haha.. then they talkin abt the captain they like.. say say i anyhw say i like the 11th captain.. then waileong.. " gay la the eleventh captain.. so strong.. blah blah.." hahaX..

trigun not bad la.. its abt the adventure of a proFesional gunman.. vash.. whose reason in usin his gun is for peace and love.. lols.. sounds abit gaY.. nvm.. the thing abt it is that he did not hav any memory of when he killed towns before he bcame such a caring person.. lol.. he so caring that most of the time.. he cnt bear to hurt his enemy.. startin i watch the first five to fifteen episodes are ppl tryin to capture him for reward..

lols.. spent so much time watchin anime.. ^.^.

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8:28 PM



Zzz.. another day gone.. so much closer to sch reopen and i havent bought my books.. and thats what my parents hav been naggin me abt.. lol.. someone go wit me go buy.. sian.. then still need collect ic.. early i noe i will go collect in early nov.. when i went to sch a couple of times.. nw the only reason to do so is to buy books.. lol.. probally monday.. i heard its the last day to buy books.. i hope my ic still ther on mon..

-wished i went for dare

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3:17 AM


first post... Zzz.. jus tot of creatin a blog less than an hr ago.. so here i m.. a blogs waiting to begin.. lols.. a few mins to 3 alr and i still not sleeping.. guess Ur right that im nortuna(dono if i spelt correctly) lets see.. abt twelve hrs to dare.. elewen hrs to decorating the 6th floor.. jrocks meetin for lunch in ten hrs.. and hav meet in nine hrs? for rs.. thats if i minus correctly..

sian.. com broke down and hav to use this laptop that cant do anythin.. except goin to internet and creating a blog for myself.. i hope my com will be alright.. and the worst wont come to past.. lols.. which is all data gone.. inculdin all songs.. pics.. games.. sian..

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